A letter from April 19th, 2018

Dear FutureMe, I want you to know, more than anything, that you are loved and cherished. And I don't mean by any other man or woman, except family, but by yourself. You love me, and I love you, even though I haven't met you yet. Right now I'm about 3 weeks from graduating, 2 weeks from finals. And I'm afraid of my future. And so in a way, I guess I'm afraid of you. I put so much pressure on myself to do this, accomplish that. I'm not going to tell "future me" what I hope for her to have physically accomplished except for self love. Although if I'm being perfectly honest, I hope you have a decent paying job in engineering and that Astrid and family are alive and healthy. That you're not lonely, even if you are alone. I'm 23 right now. I really love biking around the forest area along side the rio with Astrid in tail. Her tongue sticks out, such a big toothy smile that can cure any test anxiety, life anxiety. I enjoy cooking, camping.. I went to the Gila over springbreak and soaked nude in the hot springs with Astrid, as you know of course. It is very important to me, to get out in nature, do some hiking. I may need new hiking boots though, I put them up against the fire later on and burned some of the tread off accidentally. Anyway, I hope things are very happy for you right now. I would like for you to visit our family, maybe striving for every season if we don't live close? If we end up in Boulder= Find a cute guy/gal who loves being as adventurous, and who wants to go on many scuba trips. Someone open-minded. If we end up back in the Bay Area= Find a cute guy/gal who loves being as adventurous, who wants to go on many scuba trips. Someone open-minded. If we end up anywhere else, you know the deal. Now, I'm going to go do my part by passing those finals, you do your part of making good life decisions. Love, You