A letter from July 6th, 2018

Dear FutureMe, right now its 6th of july 2018 6:47 am and i am totally ****** up! i haven't slept for last few weeks! i dont know why. All is know is I am not a drug addict! This year doesn't seem right for me! My mother is totally insane ! her words always make me cry..for just few moments! i know its hard to see her cry. FUTURE ME i wish u make ur all mistakes in right position . All i need to know is DID YOU STOP SMOKING WEED? right now my ans is no..cuz I cant! i need it to escape from my reality...i am not strong enough to face it my own dirty deeds. I guess its my period to think such unnecessary things! I am now 19 yrs old guess this is it... LATE ADOLESCENCE ? BUT also MY LIFE IS SO COOL! its all cuz of weed ! U cant buy happiness but u can buy weed which is near to happiness...but it is not happiness remember it. Everybody seems happy in this world...why not me? No one knows whats happening in their life. **** **** **** ! THIS IS ******* EMBARASSING! Dear Futureme, wish u r happy right now ! i dont know when r u gonna read this? once u do remember do not repeat such mistakes which i had done in this year specially in 25th anniversary of my parents! u know it i dont need to write here! always remember u can not be as a good u were in childhood! I can feel it now . I guess this is it for now future me. Always be positive. Never let ur worries carry u ! worries are like a glass of water holding in hand...more u hold, more u feel pain ! Hope u are in right track ! God bless u furure me. season of world cup! messi n ronaldo out in same day ! ronaldo to move on juve.. great day saturday! deliver it on 15 june 2022 another world cup QATAR.