To my future self

Hey there , how are you doing ME ? Today it's July 7th and I am feeling pretty melancholic . I have been thinking a lot lately , you know . About Friendships , Relationships and stuff . I guess you have probably forgotten about it , or maybe not . You ... No , WE , we have always been so stubborn with these kinds of things . Anyway , congratulations to your 20th Birthday . I hope you have grown up a bit , compared to the me now . I mean both physically and mentally of course . I always got said to become more mature and stop being so childish at times . Especially these days ... I have been reminiscing about all the mistakes I have done in these recent years . How many friends I lost , what I did to the current and former ones ... It was a really long list really . There are a lot of choices that I truly regret doing , you know . That time I didn't trust my most beloved best friend and also gf at the time , or the time I hurt another friend by saying horrible things to her cause she rejected me ( i was so childish , I felt that since I fell in love with her , she should answer me back ) and this caused us to drift apart for years . The time I cut off all my ties with one of my best friends because of my jealousy , or when I cut it off again because we weren't so close anymore . The last one was caused by lots of little problems here and there , but the most important thing was that there was no more that feeling of warm and friendship with us . But I think you may remember it ... I can't really say everything to you again , future me , and I hope that maybe you made up some of my past mistakes . I know I am giving you a great burden , but I truly hope that everything can be fixed ... Thank you , me ... Really .