A letter from August 22nd, 2018

Dear FutureMe, Let's divide this into 4 goals: love, family, career, health. Love: I know you are crazy about her right now. You've stopped talking to other girls, hoping for an eventual reunion with her. Your heart will come to terms with what your head had: she was the right person at the wrong time. Both of you will choose career over each other anyday. You are about to leave Asia, but you have found the reason to never leave. Please look back to her as the crucial lesson in training your "letting go" muscle. Also, stop listening to Palace by Sam Smith. Family: As mentioned above, you have built this wall between your parents and you because you love girls. I want you to be able to say it loud and clear that you have always loved girls, and will love girls, and you will always be you that your parents know. I really hope you would have come out to your parents, and that they are okay with it, and that you found a girl that you could introduce to your parents. I hope Papa still remembers you as he slowly sink away underneath his Alzeimer's. He is your hero, and he will always be. Tell him you love him, and hug him. I hope Mommy's back does not trouble her as much, and that she has patience and courage to deal with Papa. I hope your brother has found a gal that he does not mind introducing to your parents. I hope he find a good girl that loves him not for his money. Career: You did great as a 25 year old who managed 60 people, you sacrificed blood, sweat and tears. I hope you get to worked in another country, at an international firm. I hope you are a manager making at least 100,000 a year. Seriously, if you haven't then maybe you went wrong with your negotiation somewhere! Health: Your relationship with yourself is the greatest it has ever been. You realised you are attractive, as going on dates show. You realised you are smart, and you deserved to be loved. You realised you can choose who you wish to date! Think about it! Your definition of love is to love with not wanting to control your partner. I know you still have self doubt, but I want you to know your past self was very content with who she is. You better be too. Your relationship with foods is the healthiest it has been now. You should be at 24% BFP seriously, and that you have abs. If you're not I am going to be so disappoint. I hope your back doesn't hurt as much now. I hope you still meditate daily. All in all, I love you. Even if you make mistakes, know that I love you.