A letter from December 18th, 2018

Dear FutureMe, Do you still remember how desperate you were in 2017? I've received the letter, and although I hadn't completely let go, I must say we're better, a tiny bit better. We've learned quite a lot in the past year. There were bumps and scratches along the way, but I believe we're on the right track. We've forgiven, but not forgotten. Left the past as it is and made new memories. We've reached out and preserved friendships, and made new ones. We've held on and struggled to remember how to love, and quite succeeded too. We've learned to appreciate the little things, and be happy and content. We went to adventures, and explored new ground. I must say it has been quite productive, and we've grown. There are a lot of things that still need to be changed. Be more active in parenting for example, and try to get closer to them. I do hope you learn to be a good mother. And that your children will not remember you as just someone who sends the odd gifts every now and then, but someone they can truly rely on. I know it is difficult, we are struggling at the moment, because we fear the pain, the longing, the regret. But fear more the consequences. You must change. You must, or you will lose them. And also, try to get a hold of your finances. :) We are still struggling 'til now. But I think it will get better, but please do not spend too much and forget to save. It is not for you, but it is for your (not so) little ones. It is my wish that you continue to improve yourself. And try to reach those dreams you've kept on hold for so long. Japan travel for example. Can we get there before 2020?? I hope so. And have you decided yet? Migrate or stay? Right now, we are confused. But I know someday we'll be able to make a concrete decision. It is liberating and quite exciting to know what you would be thinking upon receiving and reading this. After all, we are unpredictable. But I hope you're happy. I hope you are content, I hope you are living the life that we've hoped for. I pray that you've become stronger than us, more decisive than us, more mature than us, and is busy building dreams or living them, or working towards them. I love you, and stay positive.