Arrange whatever comes your way

Dear FutureMe, I'm sitting here on my bed writing this while crying, because I feel like I'm not worthy to anything, like life pushes me down and I don't know how to push myself up. I really hope that my future self is feeling better, happy, loved, and all around doing whatever it wants. If not you probably should work on that now. I wish for my future self, that it learned to trust people more, that it didn't forget itself by helping other people, just because it cared. I hope that you got all the love back that you put in others. I hope that you have the best friends in the world, maybe even a partner, that you can share your love with. If not, it's fine, too. I hope that your family is understanding with whatever choices you made and if not, it's your life, you decide what to do with it. They will still love you, I'm sure. They never could not love you. You're their own flesh and blood. I hope that you have learned more about life, happiness, love, mindfulness, understanding, believe and worship. And I hope that you will learn a lot more about these things. My advice at this point is to do stuff you have never done before and do things everyday that you really want to do and to find time for these things. I hope this note from your future self will help you focus on things that you haven't tried out and are helping with a good and full life. Never stop thinking about your own happiness and don't panic thinking about your future. with much love, Self