A letter from July 14th, 2019

Dear Future Me, I have just read the letter I wrote to my future self back on 24 March 2018 and it has made me emotional. The things I wanted to happen did not quite happen the way I thought they would when they did, but some kind of did and just above a year from then, I'm thinking to myself: man, it's crazy everything that can happen in a year. Crazy how one can 'change' in the course of one year. I'll just go back on what has happened since that letter before diving into the one for my future self. I couldn't stand my job/wait to find a better one; well I've come to find it fulfilling in a way and I've gained such a close bound with my colleagues. I wanted to find love: I haven't found the love I was expecting, but I still have found some, in more than one man, in more than one way. I wanted to meet new people, many have come in my life; some of whom have gone, some of whom have stayed. I wanted to love myself better, I am still working on that and have already made some progress. Another thing I have realised is in this last year, I have lost things and gained others. What a ride is has been! Okay so I guess now is the time to write a letter to my 2020 self. Just like last time, this feels sort of surreal and incredibly exciting. It is making me optimistic and ambitious, hopeful and faithful. Still, I do not want to put any pressure on you, Future Me, and set a thousand goals. Most of all, I hope that by this time next year, your are at peace with yourself, with your life as it is then, and with your past. I hope you love yourself, and your life. I hope you have learnt how to make the best decisions, when to follow your intuitions and when to follow your heart. Future Me, I hope you are happy, truly happy, I hope you're healthy and live with passion. I hope you are receiving everything good you deserve, I sincerely wish it on you with all my heart :) If there's one thing I have learnt over the past year, it is that life is full or surprises, good and bad. Life is a rollercoaster and an incredible journey that teaches you tons about yourself, about others, about how to enjoy it. I have that when you look back on the rest of 2019 and the first half of 2020, you have still experienced many of life's wonders. My battery is running super low so I'll wrap this up now: I love you loads, please keep loving yourself more everyday, keep cherishing yourself and keep being more and more optimistic and confident everyday! PS: just to set the scene, I am currently sipping hibiscus-something-flavoured tea sitting at my table on my balcony, do you remember this? PPS: just because you can never say it too many times, I love you xx