A letter from August 11th, 2019

Dear FutureMe, you’ll be ok you can make it through today you are valid you are beautiful take a deep breath feel the air fill your lungs hear your heartbeat feel the blood pumping through your body know that you are alive look around you you made it this far look to the past you made it through that look to the future you can conquer that feel your emotions let them run their course don’t bottle things up uncork it and let the contents flow like a river see yourself let that reflection know it’s beautiful stop trying to find love let it find you take care of that love let it blossom and bloom treat it with respect you got this you can make it through tonight keep going with a mind that’s been through hell. You fucking moron, you nearly smoked marijuana today. Lol. I don't know if I am high right now or not. But, I am feeling so fuckin awesome. You got the poem above from a youtube lofi music video. the title is it's going to be okay... You are ugly as fuck right now. I hope when this letter reaches you, you will have a girlfriend somehow. And, yeah fuck you dog. What's up with your youtube channel? Have you started earning money? What happened to your 11th result. And how did your 12th go? I just hope good for all of the above. And, today august 11, 19, I feel like I am in the most sensible part of my life. I just want someone who understands me and guides me and hold me for the rest of my life. I hope you will have got her once you get this letter. And, yeah I hope you are alive when you get this. Okay? So, just write a letter to yourself 5 years after summarizing this year. Ok! And, finally fuck you dog! And, love you! You are awesome! Even if you haven't got or achieved all those things you wanted, it's okay! Just don't give up! Some things are never meant to be yours. But, remember that you do have control over your future. And, you can achieve your academic/wealth goals. Just go for that. It doesn't matter if you have someone or not. You alone can do that shit. Okay! And, yeah don't lose hope! Just keep trying to improve yourself. Atleast try. Maybe you will hit a luck somehow just like you did when you were at 10. Haha. And, what's up with her? Still stalking? Lol. Just leave it. I am not working right now. But I promise I will start working as soon as possible towards my goal. Don't let yourself down okay? Even if you have given up, this is a reminder that you can start anew. Just, don't give up. You can do it! And Love you so much. I hope you love your family as much as at the time I am writing this letter. And yeah, remind your family that you love them. I guess this is it for today. Love you!