A letter from September 15th, 2019

Dear FutureMe, Well, you did it. You fucked up the one good thing in your life that you ever had going for yourself. You ruined the person that ever truly cared about you and was willing to spend the rest of their life with you. How the fuck could you do something like that? Cheat? Now you will never have their trust again. I loved her so much and yet I still did what I did. I swore I would never be a cheater and I hated people that did. That once you cheat there is no taking that person back. I had three chances and I took them for granted. It doesn’t matter that the person I did it with, we never really did the physical act but we were both were close the point where it could have happened and I stopped it. But that’s still cheating. I did it because I wanted to do what they did to me, break up their new relationship by sending screenshots and audio of suspected cheating or at least up until the point where it sounded like it was going to happen and then stop the whole thing. That is entirely fucked up. I stooped to level of the person I dislike the most. The person that tried to ruin me but in the end I ultimately ruined myself. I ruined my relationship to the girl I was in love with for the first time in my life. I’ve never felt that way before ever and I know it was and STILL is real but I destroyed it by betraying the trust and disrespecting the love we shared. I just want her back but I know she is done with me. I lost my one true love by my actions and I don’t see any point in anything anymore. Without them my life has no meaning and I betrayed them. I’m a horrible person.