how times have changed...

Dear FutureMe ( yes, you wrote a letter to yourself from the 10 year distant past), First off, happy B-day old girl! you're 28 now right? hopefully, life has been good to you and you're still alive and well when you receive this. as you can see, your past self was a notorious bad speller ( hopefully, your spelling is much better.) wow, looking at life now I wonder what I can do to change it, to make it better. at the age of 17, I feel as though I have the potential to do something. sure this is a child's dream, but before things can be reality, it must start out as a dream. I wonder if you remember the times when you got bored and you decide to dream walk, listening to music while you dream about the what ifs , whether it be in the world of anime or in RL. oh the innocence of youth, and how you tried your best to stay that way. people say now adays how I'm a good kid. I hope you still hear it yourself. remember how you gave your smile to others and a timid hello? I wonder if you still make that cute face yourself. I wonder if by 10 years that I'm married... how wonderful if it's true. I hope your life with your hubby is a great one :) rereading my message to you, I see how jumbled up these thoughts of mine are. I guess I'm more of a brainstormer then an organized thinker. there's just so much to hope for you, to remember with you! my hopes, my dreams, I wonder if you accomplished them yet. remember that thing we had to do in Mr. lonteen's class? hopefully you accomplished: making a community garden, getting an art studio. helping the poor, making a game, decorating your awesome home, getting into the college of your choice, helping a dying child wish come true, build a house for the poor, visit japan, learn the Japanese language, make a doll for someone,travel to many places, and make something that can improve the world. if you didn't complete all of them up to this point, it's ok, you still have a lot of life left to complete this hopefully :) how's your life right now? I hope it's swell. if you ain't married, then it's ok, I rather you take your time to find the hubby of your dreams rather than a dude whose only in on the sex. hopefully by 10 you stuck with a weightloss regieme. you were never consistent when you were a teen. hey, remember the times you used to play harvest moon alot? or those online games like at kongregate.com or notdoppler.com ? good times, good time. you were quite the gamer, you we interested in programming games for a time. wonder if you do that now for a profession... are you happy? my current definition of happy was when I was able to get out of my shell and be myself and not have to worry about what others thought of me. to be able to give out my genuine smile, the one that only a certain few could truely seee. remember your friends? Kate kitbamrung, kelly gorman? how about Yolene Deris and Olivia anello? I hope you've been keeping intouch with them. they were the awesome friends God gave you to keep you happy. I hope you have forgotten. give them a call once in a while, you never know what sort of connections they may have. do you remember what Poppy said about treating others? I hope you've been listening to him, he's right you know. Always treat others with kindness. it takes some much energy to be angry anyways. love, and treat other's kindly. paradise can only be accomplished if you act as though your in it! treat each day as though it were your last. you deserve so much more than the borderline! you are beautiful inside and out, don't let others put you down! remember that Poppy and Maa loved you very much, even if they were a pain to deal with or if they made you feel sad whenever you saw them. don't forget your family! family is something that should be cherished, remember the christmas tradition that Nenelle always do? maybe you could do something traditional with your family. Keep family close. I'm sure by know you've made many ties with people from around the globe, keep doing it! meet new people, keep bonds strong. if you don't, the past you shall be quite Bitchy! >:(. it's like oping a door of oppurtunity. keep the door open, k? remember these links? http://cplusplus.com/doc/tutorial/variables/ http://www.abysmal-essence.net/phpBB3/ http://cghsfl.org/