A letter from March 30th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, It's going to be interesting to see where I am in a year from now. That's it. That's the timeline for this letter. Right now, I'm sitting in Iris' room, working on a paper (but really?) social distancing because of the current CoVID-19 stuff. It's a weird time. I'm graduating within a month/two months (every big event is cancelled though). I know I got into grad school. In a year I'll know what steps I took - or at least you can reflect about 21 year old Eesh' and laugh about how much she stressed about finding things and purpose. It's been a weird year and it's only March. I broke up with Ben after two years of dating, and I guess I'm casually dating at this point. I don't know if I'm ever going to have real feelings again. But a year can change a lot huh? There is one guy who I like - but how much do I actually like him? I doubt he'll be in my life in a year from now. I hope 22 year old you is happy and healthy. And ******* it at whatever you're doing. I believe in you always, even when I feel like nothing will work out. I guess I wanted to send this in one year because I want to see how much things change in a year. I feel like this year is going to be a crazy period of growth for you. I feel like it's already been a period of growth (and fun). It's only been three months so far. Also when I reflect about my undergraduate experience, it's crazy how much I've grown. I went from being a shy, quiet kid who knew herself inside to someone more comfortable with herself and who she is on the inside. I made some crazy amazing friends that I really hope I keep in touch with in life. I had dating experiences which honestly, some were really wack but some were great. And I learnt from them. And am learning from them. I became more at peace with myself and learnt how to not care when I really don't need to. I guess I'm just in a reflective mood. If you aren't in touch with your friends from undergrad. Do it now. Send them a message. This is your signal. They're really important to me now. They should still be important to you. That's really it. I hope you're doing well Eesh. Lots of love, your 21 year old counterpart.