A letter from April 5th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hey Julie, how are you? Are you still thinking about him? Yeah I know I do right now. I miss him, I miss his hands touching mine, I miss how he told people that he was gonna marry me one day. It didnt turn out that way:( I guess the timing was bad, right? No. I should have done better. It's my fault all of it:( not really but I need a reason and it's just easier to blame it on me