A letter from April 9th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hi. Hope your doing well. Hope you're happy. For both of our sakes really hope you're still alive. Things have been difficult lately, obviouly. The entire world seems to be descending into chaos, its mind-dumbing to speak the truth. I have been thinking a lot though. Which is lovely. Usally whenever I have too much time to think to myself my own thoughts start to consume me. But I have just been contemplating art, and beauty, and other sweet and delicate things. Probably because it's just easier to think about such wonderful such topics such as those than sit down and allow all the darkness around me to eat away at my brain. I hope we have found a way to be happy. I hope we have written lots of stories, and evolved out of my current fantasies. I hope grade 11 is treating us well. It terrifies me (just a bit) to think about how by the time I am you my whole future will rest in my ability to live up to the unreasonable excpectations of a system which tends to always reject people like me...I mean us. ew. Anyways idek what else to say. Hope you're (I mean we're) doing well. Just wanted to check in, I hope I'm not the only one doing that at this point in our life. I really hope I finish The Sun Also Rises. You know how I am...I mean we are. FUCK this is weird. If I haven't finished at least 5 of those fucking books sitting and getting dusty on that book shelf slap us. Anyways I hope you know what it is you think you might want out of life. I know we're young but the world moves fast bitch and we gott figure it out FAST. OH! And I hope we have a boyfriend (or boyfriends ;)...actually no thats fucked up...unless...no), or something idk what I'll want a year from now. I mean I know and you know the pressure to find someone. Even if we are both aware of the fact that it is not entirely what I want. JUST . EXPERIMENT. Have fun. Don't be a hermit crab. Try things. I really really really hope the daring part of our personality hasn't dried up Yours truly, you ;) p.s. If the world has fallen apart I hope you are living your best dystopian life sis...I mean me...this is weird...ok bye