A letter from May 6th, 2020

Dear Future Me, You made it another year. I am so proud of you. I know you don't love yourself yet. I know you hate yourself more than anyone in the world and you think so badly about yourself, but i'm here to tell you that you are beautiful and your flaws make you absolutely amazing. I hope you've realized that by now or at least love yourself a little more. Your self worth isn't based on what people think or things you've experienced. Remember that you.are.still.standing. You've lost people that you thought you could never live without but look at you living and shit. I hope you know how amazing and strong you are even if you don't feel like it. A year from now i'm hoping you'll find meaning in your life and feel like you belong. I hope you'll feel less empty and more joy, and i will try my best to work on ways to make that happen. I hope after this quarantine shit you keep focusing on yourself and your happiness. I hope your future is filled with smiles till your cheeks hurt and laughing like you've never laughed before. I want you to find happiness and security in yourself. You don't need people to be happy but you need them to add on to your happiness. And always remember that boys ain't shit. Don't focus on them. When it's time to meet the one it will happen. Just let things happen. You are amazing and worth so much more than people have made you feel. Keep growing and discovering who you are. Don't ever give up. I love you so much. - Past you 5/6/20