A letter from October 23rd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I always seem to have a hard time starting these. I know I have so much to say but it’s difficult to articulate sometimes you know? but I’ll do my best. anyways how are you? I hope you’re genuinely happy right now. I mean we all want to feel happiness and joy. Right now I’m in my dorm room and it’s a beautiful day outside, I read a couple of my old letters and felt inspired to write this one. See the thing is I have absolutely no clue where my life is going. I’m at a point where everything seems out in the blue. It used to terrify me, not knowing but the thing is I don’t think we can ever know for certain what the future holds. Reading my old letters made me realize that. I used to predict all these things and while some of them came true they didn’t happen in the way I expected at all. What I can say for sure though is that life has a funny way of making things work out. So no matter where you are right now. Maybe you’re out late drinking with friends getting hammered. Or maybe you’re studying your *** off for that degree. Or maybe you’re waking up next to a S.O. Or maybe you’re having a lazy chill day. Whatever you’re doing, I just want to let you know it all works out. I won’t lie the last week has been rough for me. I’ve been going over why I even moved to Montreal in the first place. Why did I choose McGill. All those thoughts kept circulating through my head like a tornado. I wondered if I made a mistake. And maybe I did. But I know now that it’s okay. My life is going to be full of mistakes, some will be beautiful and some will be heartbreaking. But nonetheless I have to make mistakes. Otherwise my life would be an endless loop. Imagine doing the same things everyday. Going through the same routine gets boring. So I figured if I want to make my life meaningful it means I have to make mistakes. This is just a reminder to future me because I know I often forget to cut myself some slack. It’s okay to make mistakes. In the most corny way I can explain it, mistakes are like lessons. It’s what we need to learn and grow. So instead of predicting what will happen in the future, I just hope you make the most mistakes this year. Live your life to the absolute fullest. Live the life you always wanted for yourself filled with crazy adventures and memories. I love you. You got this.