So what has changed?

Dear FutureMe, So you are 50 now. How are you enjoying your 50th birthday? Is anyone having a surprise party for you? Maybe you don't know about it yet. Sorry if I got you all thinking about it and suspicious of everyone. So is 50 all that you thought it would be? Do you feel all old and crotchety? I sure hope not. But I'm sure it can't be no picnic either. You must be even more worried about death and what will do you in. Sorry if I got you all thinking about that too. I'm a real jerk eh.. lol.. Anyway I hope that things are better now in the future. I hope that we have that nice house in the country that we dreamt about with a beautiful garden. I hope that the kids are grown and have good jobs and can support themselves. I hope that they are so well off that they are buying us fabulous gifts all the time. Wouldn't that be nice. Is it nice? You tell me. Hope all is well in health and other things are good too. Hope you are getting lots of exercise and eating healthy. All the more reason to take care of yourself now that you are 50. I was worried that it was all down hill at 40, but darn it must be fast sloping hill now at 50. I know I'm being a jerk. Sorry for being a jerk again. I just can't help myself. I wonder though, if I was a jerk in the past, am I still a jerk now? Anyway Take care.. Me from the past.