A letter from October 24th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, hey... are you still alive? If you are... did you archive your goals? currently im 16 rn and so insecure.. i feel so ugly and i have no motivation to fix myself. im slowly starting rn... i just broke up with jon... idk if im going to be the dumbass that runs back... but yk how i was with him. and how he was with me... he stopped me from loving myself but rn i dont wanna hurt him. im in such a bad state of mind. lol, you should check in on him if you guys arent together.... you should be 17 as you read this.. how is everything? do you have your desired body... braces yet? did you gain your confidence.... how much have you done in a year. i feel as if rn i wanna give up. but hopefully in a year from TODAY im happy. if not, its okay. im so proud of you that you keep fighting...:( everday, i know it hard emily. Hows mommy going? go hug her for me bc shes going through a lot rn and shes only here bc of YOUUUU. she keeps going for you. remember she loves you so dont fail her. make her proud okay? youre so beautiful and im so so happy your reading this. lol, i hope everything is okay luv. <3