A letter from December 1st, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I’m sitting in the bath that I’ve ran and it’s too cold but ah well, I’m sure you still remember what happened yesterday and we’ll I’m not okay obviously, I feel lost because I’ve lost enough this year and I don’t know how to cope but I’ll get help,I’ll be okay. I’m 19 I’ve so much going for me, I can better myself so much and not that I need to but I can and I hope when your reading this that you realise how much your worth that you realise that’s it’s okay and I hope you’ve found yourself. There’s someone better out there that can treat you right, that Meurika and the rest of my friends will love and my family will love. But I hope you focus on you, you don’t need someone else to be happy, you’ll smile again and you’ll laugh again and you’ve loads of friends to help you do that. I hope you realise that once you put your mind to something you can do anything. I hope you learn to love yourself and I hope your journey of self discovery is amazing and fun and it might be bumpy but it’ll be worth it. You can achieve so much and become so much, your only 20 and you have already. So this is a reminder for me to you that you can keep going and you can keep dreaming and you can do whatever you want. I’m telling you this right now because it’s what I need to tell my self in the present time but I’m finding it difficult. But I love you. And I love how beautiful strong and powerful you are. Happy 20th birthday bitch, do a shot for me. And don’t be scared your only half way to 40!! Anyways I love you Love from your 19 year old self x