A letter from December 4th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I am writing to let go. To let go of the many things that have held me back from living my life fully. To let go of all of the days when my life felt like it had fallen apart, when my burdens felt too great to manage, when my experiences created a numbness inside of me, and all of the times I have slid down the wall in tears from the feelings of helplessness. I am remembering every terrible thing that has happened to me and allowing the memories to fade from the forefront of my mind. These feelings are temporary. The past is no longer here. It is gone, yet the feelings creep back to mind. It is A reality from my life but it is no longer REALITY. I will let go. Today is the day and I feel it in my soul. I fight through these triggers because I am worth it. These wounds, my scars are what make me strong, what give me resilience, and build my life. I am capable. I am strong. I will not run. I will be patient and persistent. I will not quit yet I will find surrender. Love wins. Let it win. Let it grow. Let love grow with the passion of the divine, unknowingly prosperous, uniqueness of my life. I know everything and NOTHING. My ego will resolve with the healing I create. The deferment of pain is wasted time and time is precious. For the years of healing and remembrance I thank myself and those who have stood by me. These waves will break on the shore. Better days are coming; they always do. Universe, I surrender. P.s. Hope always, wander freely, smile big, and love completely.