A letter from December 23rd, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Jessica, Hey it’s December 22 19:13 present me is sad right now because your brother is gone. Present me is nervous because I start school in January I hope I make friends. I just bought liquid chlorophyll, fenugreek and a foot mask is that all gonna matter in a year ? Probably not. I hope in the future we get good grades and make mommy proud. Hopefully I’ll already have a job and know how to handle my emotions better. I’ll wear the stuff I want without caring if people think I’m weird. You haven’t self harmed in 9 months I’m so proud of you ! Keep it up

Epilogue

over 2 years later

Hey past me! You did make a few friends in school, a few of them...

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