A letter from February 16th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How are you feeling? I’m really scared, nervous and anxious right now. It’s currently 3 days before A’Level results release, but when you’re reading this, you already know your results. I just want you to know that we did the best that we could at that time without making extreme sacrifices, so whatever grades that we get, you don’t have to be happy with it, but please go easy on ourselves. We tried our best. I’m proud of us. From now on, I hope you figure out your path. Wherever the current takes us, we’ll make sure to go with it, keep afloat and never drown. Best wishes (like really, best wishes for us, I’m hoping to hear good news from you), PastMe

Epilogue

4 months later

Update for my PastMe!

I did - well, relatively okay, in hindsight - but the moment I got my results, I was dumbfounded. The first feeling I registered while sitting...

Eht illts ulrset esat acbk my ucgictnhl cslsa hobt was teh fo tdioitmpsennpa geed slp,i fo at ta my aren asndh ryaowo,d hte eoncrr hte. .
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Ofr c lyrela lal, se,lsson yssihpc frnotnautue ym to teuirfoav tscrhiyme, nughcirs enisge orf of a d a triet,urale a tjeuscb swa stmo netdta for adn c. Ym do tlsea i terteb ofr i pdtexcee ot utb dlouc at a lelw ttouhhg eevrn ncces,sie i od dgare. For sa tlituarree. . . A x:mae nfi"e whne ym day ew ym her do thaw eetarch ewi orw,yr oyu and thob ilt liwl em iq i dlto ociounatsntl "o'tdn dnrefi allecr raeuteitrl dtteenad bfreoe. And hte an ,a rwong ngwro, eyt c fo so o,rhet nto aecsube osdrce hsse' a one su. I ubt stlil erualretti seujectvib ddi athw (see si btusecj eet?r)h rdge,a rse,u a to. . . Ptiaodnpinsgi ihst fo tuo ardge elfe hte mtos i lal, saw. To adn my twah? tou srests ot i foereb nagia fselym i gto wkno post nmpgraoci esrpe hvae oyu lfeysm eralyl. Ahnt walyas who tanh rehte era are be staremr oppeel erbdum liwl em ,me hwo nad peelop. Nlog aphpy rewe' is odgo ebing aegreav as as ogehun. L,yeiuross hysitt tish tpos leaesp t'els habit,.
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Rihtee dgoo ihts i oto 75 vgaraee aifyrcl igslhylt a tno dsocer uto i itospn ,09 src,eo d,ab ta oot ni,pto sdholu hatt is alcyulat not wcihh of ebaov rnak. .
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Drsaeg wto to i ceptac or impon,g neev spn,dditpioea chum etipcaearp adn teraf sekhocd sa a mcea yad sa of i my lfte. Dnpcuxee,te dersoc urse orf re,ocs ot!o ejsbutc lbyguraa an ,parpe ragnlee and thsee lufidftic eth ot hmtas seadrg a even wot osmt eewr a for rof i haev. Desocr ni ropdu am can a c, t?hat ofr ouy i hstee the fo 'eiv eihthsg ssbcteuj chlsoo otw eerw vere us elviebe leryal. Tryul. .
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I nawt oll ponit to or sloa osrec tuo nugsima a na hieert eth d,c/ ni no hatt tafc i betnwee. C,sku rhiete i godo ti ta or rleyla im'. A,m hwo i i sugse hats't.
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Thwi i as ithw ot tinmiomacnouc hte esbgtig elppdia rp fo ojarm ienieturissv hoeicc in my a ehert rftsi tnyco,ru sith 75, a in. Orf nut aetdisn i gysi,clooo eedforf he,iocc yb wsa lttuoy,urnaefn rdjteece dosecn and saw yeletmlopc ym nus,. Bsussnie efrodef aanneetmmg em m,us eme,wniahl. .
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A enve gonl le,fi - hitw ont a uesrpu nwhe ,amder rc,uoes fynnu eopn up my hte big a eeethgni nda - venueisr aysre i eervn degree in dais rfo ,ke"is nnomiitoacscmu a i flanyil owh armde noe to adh fo aecm "yuo to. .
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Nemetanmag eht the i den sueinbss ot csuero idedcde cptaec ni. Ni eht be hsapepr ldocu to ldea i wnta wreeh tsill sith me ot tfeuur.
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,ciohce siht amy tub aynway efli my eongtt nerev eb ifrst e'iv ni cohice csedon ym ym. Tyr,agslne egt hiccoe i ym salayw esdocn. Lwle ho. I utsj peapshr lla ot thwa teehs eapprsh ecam eigdanl srpeahp ieivdn tsi' ro t,aph ennevion,rtti of a is't aer to tihw or up fcootrm me semfyl ettbre e'xscsu'e ansrs'eo'. .
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Ryt not trncure israrec e?mratt oflat salywa ,on nda lfyelpeauc we norwd im' ,ot y,sa me sjut to it ahtp lkei veaterhw whta does evreerhw 'slet the. Be aypph s'etl. Kas lla ofr nac thtas' i. .
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Eolv,.
Trumufee.
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P. S. Fo am drpuo ayerll su, 'mi i. Ohw uto rwoedk tudscion ew osftfer ofr hrad i dan onwk i wto'n ,hsti. On! esgo eilf.