Hello me of the future

Dear A.C., right now i am working at bargain network in Goleta, Ca. worst soul stealing job ever. i'm quitting as soon as i possibly can. have one more year of school to my BFA. my motto right now is "keep on truckin". i try to enjoy every possible moment, and help as many people as possible in worse situations than myself. i am 24 and 125 lbs. back is already failing, and and one miscarriage so far. Things are not good healthwise, and i think i may have another hole in my heart (causing issues above) I dont want to go to the doctor, because i just dont want to know. My only wish is that you are reading this in good health. I consider everything i'm doing now a sacrifice for later. Hopefully right now you are doing quite well in some other creative line of work. you've had a great education, good grades, and a great network of creative individuals. Right now i have absolutely nohing in my bank account and i have tons of bills to pay, and no money or help for that. I didnt have a christmas because my company made me work. i couldnt even afford to take the day off. Jason is in St. Louis, and who knows if i'll ever see him again. Right now i'm at a crossroads in my life so i figured this would be the best time to do this. I've been resourceful up to this point, i imagine the more bumps in the road the easier you can take them later on. i just want everything to be better from now on, i dont want to have to worry about money. and frankly, i dont want to. i want to be less dependant on money. that is my eventual goal. i'll take care my debt thus far, and hopefully not create any more. i am the only person i have right now. i have been stressing lately. Married to jason? hopefully. if not at least someone else who treats you nice, and takes good care of your health and well being. don't be stuck, you never let anybody hold you down before. in the end the people that you love will be your legacy. at the time i am very optimistic about that, and i have a firm hold of what i want to accomplish. are you healthy? hopefully not dependant on medications....sleeping ok? keep a positive outlook, people will be inspired by that. life started out hard, and i never expect it to be easy, but i can try my best. continue to survive. it's the only thing we can do.