A letter from Aug 20th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Today's the day I finally have to drive her to a different state then say goodbye and fly back. I pretended it wasn't happening for a long time but the endless ocean of time is now droplets in my hands. I have no job at the destination and its highly unlikely work will let me do it remotely, despite spending weeks at a time never leaving my office. Worst case scenario this lasts until my lease ends in a month but for someone I've been joined at the hip to and loved for years it feels like an eternity. The job market is tough and I don't know how much longer I can put up with getting to the end process of interviews just to be passed over. I've literally filled out hundreds of applications. What am I doing wrong? How do I survive with no job knowing the anxiety will eat me alive? Please tell me she's still there, Anonymous