A letter from Jun 10, 2022

Dear FutureMe, I hope this message finds you well. Currently (pastly), I have just finished high school and will go on to graduate in a few days. We did it, it was hard but we did it. I hope you have gotten some contact information of Ms. Bennett-Wall and Ms. Simmons, because we know, that both of them were of GREAT help to us when trying to pass that threshold. Right now, we are just antsy to get to Gardner-Webb University and to be able to experience the college life but we were hit with a crazy talk with our parents telling us we needed to pay for our own gas and have to work everyday now/until we go off to school. Oh yeah, Tram and I are not talking during this time and right now, I don’t really want to speak to her anymore and I hope that our distance (physical) helps keep us apart (relationship wise). I say this because the way she’s been acting/the person she is, is not someone I want to surround myself with; acting entitled to everything and everyone, feeling like she can be mad at me at any point in time like I’m disposable and making our relationship feel conditional. As much as I have done for her, and she doesn’t even feel like there’s any type of need to keep it in any good standing. I LITERALLY PEED IN A CUP FOR HER! I was risking my future and everything I could’ve built up (if anybody found out), without a second thought at that, to help her in any way I could. Currently, it’s been since Thursday, June 2, 2022 and we still aren’t on speaking terms. Also, I’ve been giving the Baylor Study Abroad thing a slight thought but I know my parents and family will not let that happen so I hope you’ve given some thought into studying abroad because we both know that we can’t just stop all of our plans we have already decided to change it all on a whim. I feel like this time I’m experiencing now is just like filler days because everything is a bit of a blur and the days are just going by slowly. I hope you have cut off your trainer like you’ve wanted to and figured out a good way to lose the weight that we both know, is only so stubborn because of your diet. It’d be great if we found a trainer like Iman but life doesn’t always work that way. If you do get this message, then you’re probably done with your first year of school and just popped your “living away from the family” cherry. As suffocating as they are, they’re still your family and the distance hopefully did you well. As much as they are great and all, they currently depend too much on you and you need to be able to do your own things now. I hope you got out of your shell a bit and made some friends, (you didn’t buy those dresses for nothing 😉) , I also don’t know how I feel about you popping your “actual” cherry in your first year but if you found someone, make sure they’re good to you and hopefully not using you because you and I know that we love HARD. At this point in our life, we are not worried about any type of relationship or even any type of fun because we are about to leave but I do only wish you happiness. Kelly is currently in Florida taking care of her mom and Eva so her and I have enough distance to where we can talk but not too often without it feeling like its suffocating. I hope she’s changed. Lam is currently on his Virginia M&A deal and we hope that it goes through but only the Lord (and you in the future) know that. Does he pay for your tuition like he said he wanted to? Leah and I are currently talking ~everyday and she’s cool peoples. I hope you feel the same way while reading this. Also, you need to find a roommate if you decide to get an Honors Suite. By the way, how’s that going? We know that it has been a struggle for us to actually send in the contract but we still did it. Another thing, I hope we didn’t lose our merit scholarship and have to pay more out of pocket now. But also right now, I don’t know what I want to do with my life. I truly want to be a housewife but we know we need to do some work before we get there. I’m telling my family that we are going to become a Project Manager but after that class that I took at Forsyth Tech, I really don’t know what I want to be anymore and am trying to figure myself out. I’ve looked into Event Planning and Interior Design but I truly don’t know what I want. Do you also decide to do nails in school? That’s something that we try to decide where we want to do them because we cant do them in our dorm but maybe not the common area either. One thing I do wish for you is to cook more while you’re there and to try to keep good weight because our condition is not the best thing to have for weight. Maybe you take the CrossFit seriously and get RIPPED 💪🏿, or maybe not, we’ll see. How does weightlifting go for you? Because I know that you chose that for your gym activity. As much as we love to see that physique improvement, I want to know about Trevor(Coach TJ tried to get more info on him for you so you could see if you wanted to go on a date with him)? Does he actually have an iPhone? What about Isaiah Moore? Does he come into your life as more than just eye candy? We know that he was cute but never going to be anything serious anyways. The Lake Trip is coming up soon and are you still planning those? Who am I kidding, of course you are. Has mom and dad found a house at the lake for them yet? Has any type of budgeting changed? This is all I have to say about my life currently and I hope that EVERYTHING goes well for you but don’t forget, this is your path and no one can tell you how to go about it. Another thing, if you believe you deserve it, the universe will serve it. Sincerely, Past Trina (6/10/2022)