Time Travelled — almost 2 years

A letter from Sep 05, 2022

Sep 05, 2022 Sep 05, 2024

Epilogue

Peaceful right?

OG LETTER: Dear FutureMe, I'm currently a 16 year old mess I have no idea what I want to do in life I have no idea who I want to be in life I've never dated. I've never had my first kiss. I've never had a job. I feel like I've never done anything. How have I lived 16 years on this planet and done nothing. I've watched every episode of Supernatural, I've tried all the iced coffee in Tesco but I've never REALLY lived. I want to live not just exist. I feel so lacking in everything. I love reading, I love writing, I love to delve into these fictional worlds but I feel like I'm missing so much in the real world. I hope you, future me, are living and feeling better than me. I love you no matter what. ----------------- Dear FutureMe, wow I forgot about this I cant believe its been a year update time!! so I'm still a mess, just a 17 yo one now - but i think I'm a better mess :)) I feel a bit happier with myself and my world now. It's kind of the opposite now, I have so many ideas of what I want to do with my life, its hard to narrow them down. I'm doing a gap year next year, I can't wait. I think working will be tough but I'm excited to leave work at work and come home and not have to worry about homework and things like that. A Levels are brewing ahhhh but I AM GOING TO WORK HARD (manifesting haha) because I deserve to do well. Still never dated. Still never been kissed. I am scared I'm missing out. At the same time, I'm working on loving myself, adding someone else into the equation might upset the balance at the moment. Jobs: haha still never had one, too much volunteering so random but it rained so hard and there was so much lightning last night - I liked that Awwww Supernatural, those were the days. I've got a more healthy relationship with it, and TV, these days - not much more heathy but a little bit, I just started Doctor Who!!! Iced coffee is still my drug of choice, I'm sure it will be in 5 years as well. It's cheesy but I think you forget you're already living - every second, every breath you ARE living - just try and enjoy it a bit more, put a bit less pressure on it. what I'm learning is the real and the fictional worlds can exist at the same time, I don't have to put my all into one - it's about balance and that's ok. Working out that TV and books is what makes me happy doesn't mean you have to abandon real life. I am doing better, sometimes it doesn't feel like it but then I look back at my 2020 and 2021 self and I realise how far I've come. I'm going into my final year of compulsory education tomorrow, crazy times. and then the fun/work begins :))) I still love you, you idiot, love yourself a bit more <3 ------ New Questions (5/9/22) how was the gap year???? i know working was probs hard and stress BUT think of all that money and experience. did you book/go on that dream trip to crema? I know it seems super expensive - maybe just maybe talk to mum about financing it a bit - your dream of cycling round the Italian countryside deserves to come to fruition HOW'S THE SAVINGS ACCOUNT!!! you are working so hard on it right now - actually keeping up w/ your goal - its at £228 right now - pretty cool :) How did A Levels go? i really wouldn't ask but i think you will do well - i know I always say I don't believe in myself but i think i am actually pretty smart hehe OMG OMG OMG WHERE ARE YOU GOING TO UNI!!!! HOW WAS THIS NOT MY FIRST QUESTION? DID YOU MIRACULOUSLY GET INTO OXFORD LOL, OR SHEFFIELD, YOU LOVE SHEFFIELD, MAYBE EDINBURG, THEY DO A SUPER GOOD YEAR ABROAD SCHEME, awww whatever/whevever you go, make the most of it. love life... do i dare ask... finally get that first kiss yet??? if not that's ok, we're working on it :))) what tv are you watching right now? so many shows so little time lol. oooh how are the new marvel movies - last one that came out was love and thunder (mid) and ms marvel (amazing!!!) you still addicted to iced coffee lol please tell me your keeping in touch with louise and heather - you need them, they are really good friends ohhhh and Kassie and Charles!!! please tell me you kept in touch! I'm seeing them next week, we're watching The Sandman together and maybe the dofe lot - they are lovely - perhaps a yearly ice skating thing? i hope you still read a lot - it is super cool - hopefully you've had more time because you're not at school OMG DID YOU WATCH ALL THE MOVIES ON THE MOVIE POSTER IN YOUR ROOM - YOU AND DAD ARE SO EXCITED TO START IT! did you get that funky samsung flip phone? is covid totally gone by then? its not really a thing anymore but it still feels weird to think about. i still cant get over how i lost 2 years to sadness, how i could have been enjoying my family time, and exploring new things. i don't like to dwell on the past but i will be eternally sad for all the pain emma caused me - i am so glad i got out of that friendship have you and mum and dad and sister finished watching big bang theory yet - you're on season 4 right now! YOU BETTER STILL DO FAMILY MOVIE NIGHT! THOSE ARE YOUR FAVOURITE PART OF THE WEEK, NOT THAT YOU WOULD EVER ADMIT THAT i hesitate to ask but are you still friends with Annabelle, she's changed so much... it's just more awkward now... i don't think we'll ever be proper freidns again, that makes me sad ollie... just no. i hope iris is doing better - she deserves to be happy did you paint the walls of your room green? that was the dream! how hard was winter 2022 financially? mum and dad are looking nervous, talking about shutting off the heating to save money talking of that, is the war in ukraine over? is russia giving us gas again? i hope you're enjoying life just a bit more, baby steps, think of how far you have come since 2020 i love you idiot :))))))

Epilogue

1 day later

2024 RESPONSE:
BRO so much has changed this is wild, like genuinly crazy.
my whole world is like constantly shifting, this time next week im driving up to *** for...

Eertni inu rbbyaplo veer ym lilw been jtus teh laradicltys ikle **** bsieggt cnhega, uhogrht e'vi ahcgen lief lyoh. Urocc eeksp fo azycr topl hcum tisstw the on guirtn,n uaomtn sit and teh lrdwo em to thta hwo utjs sniean. Drspeon ok liek ewf i husldo susoenqti i ot efel a.
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Yuo gtes as ot utsrt ti i ym elrufyso eary ov,el so in 16 uryo oyu onso tsatrs weer sutj fsl,e rigl aowlwilgn yrmesi oyu lehow im all peanph odl lyealr tysrlif, ot feli fcat uhrthgo me rete,bt ggion roys,r ti opst ni ym noit as ti otwhr dan edtexn. Sa yeoneerv fo ofr tath im eens eeseexircnp as wyaa ,you em slily tjus iknht ipusdt you pu nda oaunrd odwlu nad ayw as ouy lnuooc utstr bnieg trats as si noos i cleroo i shyed pone ahev as and hvea athn ot sedleira ofmr esle ouy aref. Flecert 16 eomr edso lfie hwit hwti aer aiseler at nad leoepp seosdesb lear nad ,rumaityt h)slooc yuo uryo tmei teh thsi bkca imanptotr tsill aak( eyvr ilcscer herew rmeo adn dan yuo otn owgr panexd utsj ynit oonshirz is hte oasl pliutapoyr up blbueb cry,ihreha emocs het hghi nahmoolr.
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Adn fierug ahh)a vie' aotwrds uto mi wokn renev tenx hectiswd mi as tli'l bti a osla deiam to trtlee ni **** snargtti agchen mi ym olt ryea ot slcscasi iitocnmcnmoau gthmi - tath dna etmi irtshoy chioce rgteigretn wlheo i uyo lla my my gaian hlhigy nad suer a htsi tub /w ailengn eedreg nroajlsimu eb nto(.
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Bor tlsil yhae gingo - ile ,knigsis ot ton hedinb ybso prytte ee'rw gda,tni. Susligrynipnu gbeni eiksy rwgo a eyrtpt tyr hyea soed dihlc nweh aetd a you as so nda obj 'asd ot opro up. It it vnee igkman akbc lwid a is srroy kseoj hwo dsohl now, i gihnt uchm si utb abd you soliueyrs ownk ltisl. Hda itnospralieh 'ouyer eudatp dan im ypaph and aafidr atht hwsi ubt hmitg ybneod tebetr ensw i hte asetbl evah rayteph a htta i lol ni a 5202 be ro dekorw to. Atwh dornua mum oyu rudpo mi <3 llte he too fo cseert cgiarrny ywa ebne olgn eusrp did idd atoub so euvyo' ,uyo rfo ouy taht to.
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Listl ysub i yuo er'uyo hgutho ko mero ebtetr erhyte' uesr dna ot auurantrpels otbau ilfe tis' vloe signrabemes f1 rnycgi ko!!! sttah bmutrl rof fo otg astp knwo my my ym aesrn,o umhc enve isdihimn mi phypa and twhi hsaspe eomr etg ubt i nito ni koarhtcwb uveoy' nufncelei aeetengr as a ti, a slitl be omre posdeusp loehiistpanr mi a vrey the onw, hspeas wlil ryuo.
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Ko niggo tish otn beievle to ryoe'u gleiir. . . . Tckso ietdr lcepa yeltlairl mhet htat orkw oetcs on fesce'fo yeha sbabe hlveess uyo oeyv'u eht fr,mo het yuo all ta. . . . Oplt hhaa swtit. Lr)ate nsohelty o ihknt be ntemnio eerv sehvlse oigdn a trfsi ew but ucmh otno levod my dah as 19 azycr ta ,yrc 'lelw me im ktniogcs stoec eht eocts ogd y get utb sridecnoed di' e!t!trle hvea rhee os re,a ni taht eyha (oh 'vie udowl ttha ot bauto we i tond' ta 16 twah job.
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Rn'eta cabk eenv sa nad s,ertnsite tsrtu em tmae nrgaayiim reanidg uyo yruo uyo as rwied sdlwro uory intkh irntgiw cmuh ghndoli. Lla evual dab 17 odd nda ievisnest nad adme tasp adn ti so whchi wdenkaglebleo adn and idrew me ta a',swtn hinsgt saw yuo ufynn aws a sit in,tgh hmuc adn 81 yuo and htta knid i ti duasesm ehste peleop dan and gmus ni moteevi.
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Tseoh uyo ni uyo ,on elar wsa ti twah anc ,atlehh hinkt onw vhaing tebrte otu hteer eewr ruoy na lwdor uyo mtsaol rttsu kepe ngimssi smesdi fro ayleitr at now i roue'y ncpreisexee at weher aws 16 a that e,m seraf otu tganeee eag t,uo mnalte ryefsolu kid tbi.
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Ear than ebetrt i" peho feturu em ngivli dna ,me yuo, geinelf.
Twha elov on rtmate ouy i. " ituce a hawt. Bdudy em weer' dnogi ko trust.
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Surep lal you edrhi pduro inpughs reew touab ni uyo irgl ptu ogdo in tisme erwe i uoy tcfa eewr effrto nazagmi cohe enhw sujt me hrad elsvle llwe ehots ok,rw seoct ahtw nad y aahed yrou uroy o y orf oogd liek o inigvb in oholoooloeoo with ouy of eefl i emxsa uoy 81 ouyr os she iarnetkh hgtrh,ou a snodreaet hyo,entsl wnke et,asd ysas 17 neod bigen shuc opypp.
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T"aht wsa enecinegripx ,rnai so nriaed nad ebmetpesr tginlhnig dmnroa it s"o erhet lsat mi ----- muhc ti ingth eidkl btu - radh os ihtgr i o!nw! heay.
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Me gongi taht hguoht afrfod fi stlil eyah lrig leuc it adn letta miem nac efocfe eidc i ton ta a iun rogtsn, cefa rpi.
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Tis mena i ehss 18 llllolll hlaeht uro in opsp oekj em hte ohw ot knthi im( yare gelfrai notd s)i acbk dlo lmntae i yrrso - nnfuy eensrhct juts.
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Cloo too hrda ifrts ni dogo asw nhew pket het to lelev to tge em at dfaiyteeln it help ahtts ngifind cumh 3 lhep lla nigth gongi lotafa uin nwhe loco so it harytep seom a isoraolpfnes utnh dene you offert haye hmonts otu put dtind ym het ot 'uoeyr dan bjo i asw esrfcau tbu.
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Ti btauo sesem ogidn lhba i,sth ndto ot elwl to htta onkw hhturog lhab hte ahlb eekp daeayrl mum woooa,ooonoyh ton so rnyitg dan fro wetn ot bjo kntih gialknt eb oned i i aeyh ew.
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Lotetrhac sheetr olt byo eher nemos, roev fnirtlgi ot byo ihwt a ok oh ho naukpc os ho ogod boy ydudb. Llgneit liek oplt the lvbeiee titws is si fo the ldwuont kottsik tath hsti 0242 mneotm me yuo ehr 3022" me hewn otabu" see oeths. Elllraiyt ecart to loduw lgir nctnoa oytrs you i ysrro hwo omathf stih. Slao lyol ocdrot nislk who ot shit.
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So gom 'reyou yeth geasdg,h ilked yeha you eb it lelt so i ?te????go?eh?rt?? aiacylbsl ehs wsa eikl odwlu kyesi hyae oughth acn eenv htey hes fhsiles twah, ayawsny it pslet him and oyu kwne ehr os otdl em,t ewrdi did adn usjt. Tno og he so hse gwnro edepon ti cfta nedo fedinr aaysywn 'sshe reh noti eht a btu was ro tmean fo as ttah ouy eses oagdpileos tldo oryu yarlle eyes eecsaub ehr and odtn that yb ueacebs hess tors nnaaw ernev godo alyacibls atth asw ahdr dan ot reom it she's ??y?e?as fsieslh sa aniotcs i ehs. . . . Hsti rdyea gte rof. . . It a y,ug teh emad bf i jsut etohr oautb o?n???w dditn itusionat pu eokj jtus chum hes dserwec sha me nwhe ton a get how adn she ehwol mhi semo ylol. Neam kiel gnoiksm mesesd fo elsourysi i ti ,pu rsatdet i me pu semdse ellves me. Moeks me i (:((( yuo twan me ylelra ndidt **** phepnsa nokw yreougn ot mi rsoyr.
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Em tgo i prsneo dhr,a ubt otnlehys im yhae liiadfeuq notdulw hyw a godo etinggt ahtt a tlairllye ojb olsa natw st'wan heyt lcuyk. Iureysosl no ni yug cam my aster psoo ihst gaa)in me ledhpe elfs is fo euiennflc hte ym eyes ym aka( eivmrop tmeees and sith geo.
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Rtcoht,aal t)ce isrnfde lto ot syat pitcma ot lwli osen iun ht,ru truts lieltt heav em eth ilwl ear royu ****** neatm oryu adn lwli yrev sloei,u ahtt ualatlyc het pni,ihssdrfe ka(a gvmoni on the drfit meatn neso ot. Den neve oylul' oury gnetigt llsti miymj oals defsnir hitw otnw k(mar wya srcoel and wne along alnbeale wfe olt eloppe ontsa pkci a eth pu aka in oll'yu nad a iehlm) pu rery/gacbu.
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Patr ondt elss leyr hte on uyo laebenc tou lsyawa a orywr ofr be lwli eifl urse nfa rteenim,antent eth ncifanfoit emor but gib ouy yuor wdolr lilw lehyath erseht fo a eth og mi ouy rteeh.
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Sih ritgh stuj da,yto sinigms rwok hsuc ta frntideef ubt btu off now astl durpo em jbo ycazr dki hwo enw to do ta ist adols ore'yu ,do eb yaeh sit ownerd i yad eth to his overyees'n saxm 'itll wawwww who fo mih eupsr tsnihg cm,a. You ngdbanonia d,xofor ta eamn rowdl obj i utdla to ffo eradmi,bgc isfredn ngtirsat ot ahve ritfs siednrf dna hte m,erritntee rdseifn lverat ceslo rtieh rdseifn dfnesri. Lelw' sit ikd earys dwli to hiktn eb a hrewe meit lal ni.
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Teh in lliynaf my si gusy dnecda feil ysgu, aayw rnodau up dtseteneri eht atidp,re eorm truts is gnciipk ym morf eth with edaepnph ekesw deew, o,lt done evha tikhn i 2 of,f vnerdi i raes upb, yruamms atht me eetnba ash a lnyare kiel em, em srindef o,skmde ni pu home atls erdn,isf tnah ithw setlp mead to vie 3 ta ni ssarsyssses tgo. Enmmot woh wlil im but miet seh ehewr lsymfe cntneot ta the 'lli onkw" "oh this tdno toudb mi inu i deos orf lteitl next aery eusr nghulaig ogngi iwht invytehrge be nacehg i'm ta. And mkgnai to uyo ta ttha islait)nraoe einkhart cry me cam rfo ta athts i kan(th ym poelpe me jstu a dan eovl owlrd woh efsrgpitin vhae. Agnhec luephyfol utb gongi eht tis for :) to etrteb is eeaslp arscy and taht lal.
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I ahhhh rmoe to rfogto **** adh dad ho.
1. Llyevo si to (rosyr nxte oyemn its gpa nda respu aws rsyea ypppo ayer hdar ohws yslonteh skolo sa as ti ginvha in oogd, b)det otn. Rraewd to aerltoet oeppel hhuotg tlo oyu mchu neth ouy rouy oyu egrw uyo love hated dna a teh vene rist,f teroff sesl orf orkw a edgoboy hnwe emor lto boj adn uyo ened dcire os ttha sdai at ti oyu hiwt.
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2. Nwo ehdeppna wdier tsath that neop ufesds ago nto vreen emti dog a ramce.
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3. Pu orf irlg uin dvsae - issanvg uotcan i ,1000£0 eavh.
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4. Lwel ddi sith vreo a vlslee been.
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5. Tbu you and ni ont tyr 'douy atth i ate hrewe uoscer ttrus gogni loinen good loiestda i enidmr os enbe thta it cup siivt igben reotw oasl roofxd its is dhate o)k ******* yuo feyslm ti nktih nda kusc dtrnefefi to wyrro blelidu ist fo latuycal im naem to wiht tno rluactulyl fgootr notesevey ouy btu yb ,wno tcfa utb i ruyo etah luwod uoy knwo chmu but og ertga mi trehe a its in kas a rylale stdeil nto htats ciyt rgil tndo i onxidg og rob ehva lryael anehwyre abuot it tsi tliyrelal im aesc em adn yunnf ro ot smylef eth imet ot irfnsde i aretg ahhhaah up revy n,yemo m(i vresuon ddeu.
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6. Trsfi pu o(n )yet kssi uths.
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7. Riedt tv lgri ylltaeirl royue yruo sa ppgnprei anbri actits ofr osswh uin klie os vt ehres't. Laasak mi wathnigc one ni vstsvialiur seom. Nbira dki oyu, ot i smoe dan mi to uesr iteylalrl utfsf ytado oscnar d,go aemk vhae ubt ehtor os no het nwta teyvgriren edda i eprnsdo i. To uyo ti oals kraeb soyrr si **** enw vemarl ot.
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8. Jlely rsu,e nda of eacmpd gingo the nbra tnew gnrots egdody loueis eriifndpshs to uyo lltsi nad vokda uory ddo so eyah drefdti tehahre olisue gaenv osem msoe ni mieddl of nroweeh arpty tae rof utb rtos iesm.
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9. Uyroe' ttha to - apkse ho you ttha wsa rtio dame noather icmtiv tsepl tno nto ilked tog yug orop so efglnie teh yob kseisa no seh hnet twih nda aherlcott eth fgiasrhnoodw uyo, myreoan it netsdo emogrdo. Ufnyn uhsc mnesa llo nueqe shit asw eatrsedp tath nda asdannm hte tdae yding osal a tlrtee.
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01. To tanre atht sit wider sjtu ihwt eignb lsoec ilchl no utb ytauclla tstha we efdo.
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11. Rvye im ntacesen nbiniegg a ujst etr,otheg yeitcalv ta trsnig nrthceao os the os edgrnia to hte im fo uybs wno yrae lykcu.
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21. To ahrd ot uyo tfusf on jstu otcmim hterano yrwor idk efll hintg yeah ntidd its atht tdno chwta nad emht rsoepmi atpar.
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31. Jtsu acm for enohp uyo inhtkng,i opps fi tawh bda ou'yre we rea it rsii lclcelivtyeo uyo idebull ydtao) ssumnag on adn (vene ldo rouy iknegpe filp nohpe phayp.
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41. Eyah oidvc but teh wen odrureum tsi si nepyoxokm ,nego otwn igb neo be ti. Oot sad oot emma mi ,it mi revy oevr vero mchu btu heya. Usyb nad eekp vngmoi tgtoa dwil tub tlyheosn peke a tsi iifrrohc teim gttoa.
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15. Ghglhtiih hatst rdfisne ogod morf gpa os cn,ie hryote sohws my neeb sti arye yamn nbga gib a shdeiifn siidefnh hdifnsei.
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16. Whti noylle humc ngthi teh itb ouy eth heav dog fidensr nto no tsum is eewk vyre fo setb aimyfl mvioe eneb. Oyu tsuj teh stal ntriagp si aerb fo heay hitnk i ads snrerpiges leeisgfn egeohrtt elfe rht'eye ryuo asbceye ainp inthg,ot ot oru yroue' atnc neo.
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17. Orb 306 reve neobdd r'wee lvesi our oererfv nda olcsre itsem aletrli ldiw and bnee totegehr aer vhea ealenalb siea,nn hbto moes now dan era ew nhat gohruht btessie em.
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18. Eloil. . . . Tsih no tahw ahey bro anem tlisl veen edso.
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91. I rpapehi i wnkgiro yeah ta ont teals my tuo ssdpopue s'hes rttus its se'sh krda her nhat tanysg aevh hre eraeengt vaeh haesp hes reigduf fi oknws eb oeng ienrvartsose gnetirevhy nad hess a kdi laos swoatmhe krda ubt rof vhae riis teh cbs(ai to sehs ot eflersh moe gi)rl dsie wtieh - tub.
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02. Llwas niinthgk i was ftw gnere ew.
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21. Me tspo ogt aelllyrti teg eguhon to aemn dki lgchinil are iefn iehtr ireonbtlisiysp ennsaicf alos grli i iun ont ryou ewr'e i tsi so wogriryn u'oyer yaeh ev'we ,gesus to.
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22. Arw isllt inggo. Awyals going a'rsw emohs/weer.
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23. Arykns yhea i mi oto lol ouy em tujs nda evol do rekaedcnk.

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