A letter from November 16th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, hello, it’s me. as you know, i dropped out from the university that i chose to be enrolled a year and 3 months ago. i have been having terrible mental breakdown back then trying to move out and get the ***** together. remember? the hardest thing was to get permission from your parents. i walked 40 mins to my dads workplace. it hot af and the sun was burning me alive. was it worth it tho? i’m not sure. i spent 2/3 of what i had back then and got a new job. now i have same amount of money i had back then. a year of working this job, and i got back what i had. was it worth it? at least i got to have some safe place to live in without fear of facing my family. it was comfy but me it’s time for you to go back. i know that today is the first day of university (in japan it starts in april). i have decided to start all over from freshman. i will be there irking hard this time, because there’s nowhere to escape. you can’t take break any longer, you can’t actually drop out. the only way left for you is to finish your studies. i really respect you. you thought you couldn’t take it anymore once, and now are back on track (hopefully). i know that you are strong enough to go through difficulties. you’ve been like that for entire life. you survived abusive household, toxic teachers and a lot more. thank you. 大丈夫だから。できるから。上手く行くから。信じてる。誰も信じなくなったとしても、私は私自身のことをいつまでも信じてる。 are you and him still together? if so, you might leave with him. if not, i’m sorry. it must hurt. i’m sorry that you had to go through. i hope you are fine. i reapply hope so. if you were to leave him, you got this. i know online school is hard. you might have to stay up till midnight to take classes to shift to japan time. but i know that you want that, because i want it. stay strong. legal studies isn’t simple. but i know you are intelligent. i believe in you. i love you. the picture was from last sunday, we went to chinatown and went to party afterwards. met dr that knows literally everything in the world