A letter from March 20th, 2023

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, You just had your 23rd birthday. I hope this reaches you in a better headspace. I hope you’re out of the military, and in a place you want to be. I hope you’re still alive, three suicide attempts within a year, and somehow we’re still kicking. Did you learn to make it on your own? Are you still close with Jada, or did that fizzle out. Is she doing well? **** I can’t even think of things to write that don’t involve her. She’s going to be great. **** you I don’t have to write you ****. I don’t even know if you’ll receive this you depressed sack of ****. 6 more months of ********? A year more? Who the **** are we hanging on for, what are we living for?

Epilogue

12 months later

Dear PastMe,

I’m sorry for the late reply, I think at the time I didn’t know how to tell you that...

Here tbu mi’ tge ti llits i’nddt ,ttbree.
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Btu dna spahcdeae tetrbe a won mecso hyte ,esog atsl ngelor. Ot wno a seab a got yuo ntew tuo rkwo olce,gel of rtiiayml ,out ccotrotran on dna eht iamyl,rti as poddrep. Regaieptn evha ktsesmia a we rfo kcank oru.
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Jasda’ ogne. Oyu ehnw onrsep ouy teh were kbca tgo taehd hes. Dan oto rngkdnii anlatbt ot chmu a aemgiin niivlg gsdeiardr tcnu’dol ouy uurtfe rof. Gonid iltsl ehss’ gzimaan toughh.
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Is the nad you sujt ettrle twno’ oruy prnoatyif i iansagt it ae,rg dloh of setr but. For ew givnli ubt tre’na oteduis siltl gh,tynain pporesu fo byuaet seeth’r. Oensar name he,re is eiseexcnt litvria abeuesc oyur eb no htta ot seerh’t sjut dsn’eot.
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And dsnat up re,dnik deo,blr be argistht. Mofrcto fo fnid het dan a,ocsh miyatacl dnsduarent ni taerniesnc. Os ti in’ts am rsyro i htta eettbr. Be owh that ttha eovl hotse niessll nda eosomne het im’ osyrr ,su lwdou ’mi our hree uescbea lanetm het kwal nesed yrrso nct’a of awya, orcvtyi at hprciry, veor any oyu aipn osct ouy of.