from ismet to the future

i send this e-main on 31.03.2006 dates.it is my my sweet love.i had never have a gf till now . iloved her but she could not warm to me i did everyting for her she was so cold sotimes and made me a bit illbut i love her so much ... im sure she will come off from me one day coz she loves to live the life so great.everytime her parent thought that ismet'll come here for to work and wanna have great thing but it was not so like their thought .me i loved to catia so much. i wanted to give what i have.she has got a cousion ,she wanted to sperate us but it didnt work.i everytimr feared with lose to her.catia is my everyting for me i know so much how many days i cried for her .but she heard a case to me so many times it can be but she was must not break me.:( this e-mail s from past to my love . i promised myself i will not love such deep again coz she was my first love on this life. if she has got one day any children or one day when she has a bf ,i dont know how will she touch his hands coz she did not never touched my ahdns even did not kiss.what can i tell more now my age is 20 and the time is passing like water.everting is empty without her only my god and my tear drops can tell it...i love you catia both so much!