Pre-senior to graduation <3

Peaceful right?

Hey 17 year old me? how is it going? how is life? did we make it? how was graduation? is mama and baba proud of us? did we apply to uni? did we get accepted? what are our plans? congrats btw I am so proud of u, we came and got so far, i am so happy to see that we reached this part of our life and that all the sleepless nights, mental breakdowns, stressed mornings, all those tears we shed and all that stress we kept has paid off to something great. i know its scary. ig its normal and u get adapted to it soon. but hey we are done alright? its over! this isnt the end this is just the start. what am I doing? ya lol last final exam is on monday, i have physics, me and the batch are at the library rn revising. SHD from math is moving to the states i am going to miss her alot. monday will be the last day i see her so gotta say goodbyes to everybody actually on monday. I still cant grasp the fact we are gonna be seniors. like i am still stuck in 8th grade i am sorry lmao. this is just crazy. our little sis is graduating this coming friday. I am so proud of my little girl, she had it tough this year, mental stress and emotional abuse from her teachers and she is only 6. honestly this is walking proof of how school is the cause of our mental health issues. I hope this doesnt effect her later on and i hope she gets a good teacher next year. anyways we are travelling in around 12 days so in eid. first eid i spend travelling and i am so excited. I have so many plans. ps. i hope i make it before the last first day of school, i cant miss last first day of high school. Anyways nothing so interested has happened. i am currently going crazy over jacks and eva from OUABH i need the third book asap the wait is ******* me, i need that endgame to happen. the new book better have a better ending than the one before it. but yk whats ******* me more is I cant spoil anything to my frnd cuz she is gonna start reading the series really soon and I need to talk abt this to someone, i might reread with her cuz i miss jacks <3 I hope she finishes reading it soon cuz idk how long i can keep it in me before spoiling her. anyways i will go finish studying physics then i'll just write another letter to when the third book comes out so i can yk ya lol CONGRATS AGAIN AND I AM SO PROUD OF U! YOU GO GIRL! <3 with love, ur pre-senior self. 17.june.2023

Epilogue

29 days later

oh 16 year old me.
its all over too soon.
this year was such a rollercoaster with many plot twists. i dont even know where to begin. we missed first...

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Tem iths ayre i naym ewn elopep. .
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And i fun os erya tciehc eelf swa shti.
Dne,de lal tfel a nwhe ti like dna ti emadr.
Taucylal a agidaotrnu dmrae udcil eilk telf. I eht it etsa by mtie gto ot my my aklw ilget pdloaim to lnk,bi eevn tge ulotdcn yb went a akbc i mrebmree in eth. Het ahd ni nhte setb het nrhgwito sedlaere ot hte sarye eb ahtt ssstre eth iee,lgfn lasalyhw 12 hte aslt sebdies (i eflt fo and nagmerics lble )oogd! ratfe in ca,rsme acps.
Got a ntio dtcecpea usa we orajm lopgsocyyh adn noit laippde. .
Tgo vsjekaca niyalfl atth nad mdegena btw. Vero a ew cookbopule bossese ewn dan onfdu to. . . . . And enadyp iak. Whit hte hertsta me stalmo alos ear ew deon irssee. Rweran lveo i god raano. .
Fifcyialol orev si mesurm. Ofr gln it hsit hsurt ot reay oescm het eednd adn fact too swa mremus close 0232 ahhlotgu of imfaly toinngh noos. Rigl aws ilrsg ucsh it a srmmeu. Smmeru accihot i eht isth vdlie musrmes ym ebst of anutmo as cyarz d,di emebrmre nda em ffsut fo eon haev i het csoniu lliw. And adsy i ash raayled efel ebne olny 2 it ksmhoeic. Imss yrenoeev hcum i yngtreveih os nad. On iabgnk me rhe reeyitevm sresovpeel eth adn ssmi uot, nda daor tea ciahgwtn wten tnhesgri ldl,eup het my nda whti ieptasr ew lilw all i iytn we iebk uonsic hda. Erbgonhi hte loko ritmeeyev tuo dna in eth iwdnwo hrhgtuo onlbyac su ta the gntisti agunighl pkdaee ot. Of aws ngl ti tesb one smrsume hte.
Naasyyw.
Trmw netraoioitn si. Inu ioggn rae aaullyclt omg hha to we. Os eosrunv mi. Dfsirne uro aoarbd 2 of twen. 4 het to rsohte smea tisiunrvye and nggio era. I eryoneve imss sm.
Eetm wlil uni wodnre i hwo in i. Ot todn lywoke i atnw og lgn. .
Nnpgnial a stgritan on ma i llmas ssiebusn. Dna fsee ypa haelcnn a yyuflohlep outitun nnipoeg ubeouty elhp eht to mabye. . . Lwli ees oseg hwo taht ew. .
Synawya. Wen pcareht heer a is to.
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E,arsgrd.
Em 17 lod yera.