Guess who's a college girlie?! That's right it's you!!

Hey future me, It's been a while since we've talked (meaning when I last wrote a letter in October when I wanted to ask out B, go us for that by the way) and I figured maybe I should check in. How are you doing??? It's a pretty big time for you, huh. I know I can't really say when you're going to go to college cause I don't even know where I'm going yet, but September 1st feels safe. It's a pretty big time for me right now too, I'm visiting a whole bunch of colleges this summer (AND GOING TO NEW YORK FOR TOURS WITH JAYY), and I've got that film internship, and I have a show that'll be aired on tv sometime this summer too. I also feel like it's probably going to be a fun time with friends, considering the fact that we can all drive and I have a girlfriend (it's been seven months and I'm still in shock) and we all wanna have the time of our lives after the ********* year we've all ever had. But knowing how big this is for me now, I know that every front that feels like a lot is probably bigger for you. Like wOW!!! You're actually going to college, holy ****. I don't know if you're still here, or in New York, or even Vermont, but I hope it feels right. And honestly just...congrats. You got through it! You got through the admissions process, the anticipation, and more than anything, you got through high school. Remember fifth grade? When the future felt light years away, when it felt like the present would last forever. So quickly the rest of elementary school flew by, and then middle school, and now high school. I think the craziest part of it all for me so far is remembering being a freshman. I didn't really know any seniors, but I knew JJ. And everyone looked up to JJ, he seemed like this big adult, like someone we all loved and looked up to. But now? Now that I'm almost there, now that I'm a couple months away from being among the oldest at school, it's just, like...woah. I still feel like the same little freshly out of middle school kid I was in freshman year sometimes. I know a lot has happened, I know I've changed, but it's strange being in the position that so many people I've looked up to have been in before. I so so badly wanna be that friendly senior that everyone loves and misses, I hope you achieved that haha. I also hope that you had the absolute best summer!! Like I can't even imagine summer as a senior, as someone who aspires to be a filmmaker I hope you strived to make it feel like it came right out of a coming of age movie lol. I hope it was filled with drive ins, and picnics, and fireworks, and sleepovers, and 2 am facetimes, and polaroids of memories you'll never forget. When I think about where we're all going, I really don't know what the future will look like for me and all the people I love. I hope you never forget them. And of course I had to talk about this too, but I hope everything's good with B haha. I know we always talk about our apartment in the city with our plants and our cat, and I hope it's not just a dream. I know I love her so much, and hopefully that's something you've continued to carry with you. I don't know what my future will look like, but as of now, all I know is I want her in it. And speaking of the future, I think I got carried away. Let's circle back. Ahem,,, AJKHFIJSHUFHBU YOU'RE GOING TO COLLEGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So excited for you genuinely, make sure to live it up!! Like really, do all the things. Talk to people and make friends and pop off at classes and explore and laugh and be yourself. I know college is probably gonna be tough, but it's also a lot of fun! There are so many opportunities ahead for you. Take full advantage haha, and don't lose yourself. Even when things suck you're gonna be okay!! You've got this, I believe in you. Always hold hope with you, always remember things will be okay, always remember you have to work hard for the things you care about. I think that's the best advice I can give you. And all I ask for in return is please decorate your dorm so well!!! Genuinely all I want haha. Well, good luck. I'll see you in the future <3 You from June of 2023