a note to self.

to me, maddy, right now, i’m in the keys with the raby’s. i started a book called if we were villains, and it’s really good. lola went radio silent and it really hurt me because i’ve known her for nine years and she just went and stabbed me in the back. she gave no words, just unadded me. how am i supposed to forgive her? i valued her so much, i feel like a piece of my heart is missing. **** lola and **** cancer. i’m supposed to be asleep but writing a letter to me is therapeutic, however insane i sound. i’m trying to convince mom to get another cat and if i do i want to name it. i’m really missing dad lately and it’s been really hard for me. i’ve been trying to keep strong but it feels like life can’t decide if it wants to be good or bad. i’m tired. i’m currently laying down with addy, it’s been a fun trip and i’m gonna miss it. i drove a jet ski yesterday and it was super fun. have i driven another one? also, did we go to ohio for new years? i got to go to the taylor swift eras tour on april 14th and it was magical. i also re-connected with mina and am supposed to go to the mall with her. maddy L and i are planning to do a sleepover and we’re gonna try to dye our hair. if we do end up dying it, i’m probably gonna dye mine red again. i’m really missin char right now. it’s dads weekend this weekend and i’m very excited to see him. see you on march 18th mads. happy 15th birthday. 𝔸𝕝𝕝𝕤 𝕨𝕖𝕝𝕝 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕤 𝕨𝕖𝕝𝕝 maddy 🫶