A letter from May 22, 2024

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I am going through a lot right now. My classmates are picking on me, as usual, and adding so much stress onto my life that is definitely unneeded. I am studying for this quiz I have and it's really hard. Not only that but I am waiting to hear back on a assignment that is either going to make or break my grade and I have two tests tomorrow that I am not ready for at all. I have been studying for about a half an hour and I still don't feel ready. And my daily anxiety is just making this whole thing worse. Also I am physically drained but I have to keep waking up everyday and just survive, that's what I am doing: surviving. I can't even rest this weekend because I have two sleepovers I have to go to which I am excited about and nervous about (as always) but also I don't feel like going. But I know I should go because I know I will have fun but I don't know. My brain is not working properly anymore and I feel like I can't breathe EVERY SINGLE DAY and not only that but I have to worry about what I eat because I've got stomach issues (wonderful, right?). It's just TOO MUCH. I just need a break and I can't get that until June 6. I am just wondering, how am I going to survive without dying completely inside?

Epilogue

2 months later

Your anxiety has gone down a lot but you know it’s still...

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