A letter from the past

Dear Future Me, Hello. How are you? I hope you are still alive and loving the life that you are living. Today is 3/23/11. You are keeping a smile on your face, but deep inside you are scared you may not get it together. Not that your life suck, well kind of. You are 27years old, jobless and single. You have all this dreams inside your heart, a warm house, a loving devoted husband, 3 kids that you love so much and 2 dogs. You also want to become a doctor, and spend a lot of time volunteering to help out others. Moreover, you want to be the glue that will hold your parents and siblings together. See, you are holding all those dreams in your heart. But so far, they are just a dream, a place you go to, to escape the harsh reality that you dont know how to execute all of it. In a positive way, you are clutching to this ideas that if you visualize it enough, it will somehow manifest into your reality. But see, you have been visualizing it for years, and still no results. Again, you are still stuck in the rut. and Nobody knows it but you. You haven't told your parents, you haven't told anyone. You dont want anyone to deem you as a failure or weak, so you put on a show and tell everyone its all coming up roses for you. But that's far from the truth, and you are afraid everybody will find out.. I hope when people you love do find out that you have been lying all this time, i hope they'll see that you just did that so they wont worry about you. You really didn't like to be the one asking for help, you wanted to be the one helping them out, the one they can rely on. You are praying though that this fall out won't happen. You're praying that you can keep up the lies until some kind of miracles happen. Yes, I know silly but somehow you are expecting a miracle. I hope it will come soon. and I hope by the time you receive this letter all your dreams have came true.. ps: I love you.