A letter from October 18th, 2014 , your BDAY!! from 13 ys old me :P

Dear 16 yearold me , I wrote a letter before this , but I guess it wasn't really sent. Since i did it like 3 hours ago , i have no problem doing it again . the important questions are : are you still talking with hala ?? and please say hi to future family members (okay those two lines were cliche enough). Anyways i read like many letters and all the people where coming from a dark point at life and hoping their future self is okay or something ,they left me heartbroken and sad and i wanted to hug them(the people who wrote the letters) right now.. (i am such a sweetheart ) haha .. okay but yeah i feel like this letter is silly compared to theirs and not fancy enough "but eh what you gonna do about dat " pewdiepie style . I hope you are still interested in atleast half of the stuff i like today from youtubers ,viners to tv shows and celebrity gossip .. i dont want my fangirling gone for nothing GURL .. i hope you still like books like i do .. still remember the legends divergent , the hunger games ,and the fault in our stars ?? YOU SHOULD. I DONT WANT TO MAKE THIS LONG BUT I AM SUPER EXCITED ABOUT THIS PROJECT AND I LIKE CAPS. i had this email since i was like 9 or something lol. so yeah your bday is with Zac Efron and Tyler Posey two of the hottest people according to my hot people list , which i hope you would check out later to see if ur taste has changed. okay the hot list maybe silly but whatevs. today is eid adha . okay so last letter started like dis: I am trying so hard to show you how mature i am ( not really trying) but no matter how mature i think i am , i turn out to be dumber than spongebob(no offence) atleast i have a sense of humor? no? okay okay .MY ANNACONDA DONT .. that was random . I hope you planned your future , because i got so frustrated trying to plan it for YOU . PLUS everything i do now will change your future so, if you are 16 and fat , dont blame me , blame all the tasty food out there . I am insecure about alot of things , my skills, my way of thinking and being criticized by older people , which leads to me thinking i am worthless or something . which shouldnt be true because " your value doesnt decrease based on someones inability to see your worth ". I also criticize myself , I always feel like I am not good enough , not pretty enough . I always pep talk myself but that makes me want a hug , but since everyone is busy in my family , i dont get one which ends up with me crying . I hope i get to know myself better , to know whats really inside me and to believe that i am a truly good person ,that i could do whatever i want , BESIDES i hope you really learned whats right from whats wrong , from whats good to whats bad because i got endless drama from the mistakes i did last year , which to be honest was the best year of my life .I want to help as many people as possible from the mistakes they did , but truly enough they wont stop unless they learn the hard way. i hope my future is boy drama free.. i want to become either a writer , a nutritionist or a dentist .. totally different paths, i know. i also got 276 reads on my story with hala( incredible i know) , which should make this letter bearable right?? this is me , the 13 yearold- hopeless romantic, bitchy, dork,anti social , awkward , and selfish me , hope this was an enough insight about myself and about whats happening in my life..(write a letter to 20 year old you) I have many ambitions in mind so dont disappoint me .. best regards and hugs and you know i will stand with you forever, S.A. <3