To my future queen

Dear Dr.me, Today you learnt that a doctor said that there was an experiment on severely depressed people, they deprived them off sleep for one day and after that 70% of their depression is cured, so I decided since I woke up around 11 that I don’t sleep until at least 10 am next day, I focused on my day, my flat, and heart, food(I was vegan), reading, and writing … I as I'm writing am awake it is exactly 10:00 am had only two cups of coffee last night, I think that the power of will,(butter coffee) and house chores, can keep one awake for 23hours straight feeling good enough I will be going to Warsaw this Saturday , 2nd of May to celebrate the anniversary of Imam Ali's birthday ... as Abathar came from bahrain and is going to be there.. I believe it will be an amazing event, I will go with Marta and Ethar.. early in the morning, taking the new 3hour train, for the first time, and be travelling wearing a dress, also for the first time, I guess :P so, years from this day, If you are still alive, do you still remember? Do you also remember how the event went? Do you also remember that a few years ago (from 2015) we decided that the beginning of history was on the day of his birthday ? so how old is everything today? --- this day is not as any other day ... I rediscovered my self, I know that It seems like I do it everyday these days and it might seem as a distraction from studying... but this time, it is different.. I am different, I made a plan, I will pass this exam, I will, the time is short , but so am I, haha jk ok, the time is short, but the hopes are high and the work will be good,.. I have faith in you .. we will go through this, we will appreciate the outcome .... we will keep going and miracles that made me pass chemistry and the last Polish quiz after being marked as failed... will and will happen when I still believe .. that I deserve .. and I do .. and I do love you, remember not to let anyone occupy you .. dr,nama taught you this today, my queen.. a queen should be the only one in charge of her life ... you are my manager .. and I TRUST YOU *Whatever you are going though now,you can do it!!! remember how I always said, if I passed embryology I can do ANYTHING? well I did, remember what made you pass embryology? the same lady that washed your heart once, and you whole self another time ... doesn't she deserve a thank you ? or a little more? I know you still need her ... so turn to her .. she LOVES YOU and I do too ...