hi victoria a letter from 10/3/15

right now you're in love with a girl and she's all you can think about and you just want to see her all the time and have her close to you and talk to her and hear her voice and her laugh and stare at her freckles and poke her dimples and play with her hair and you just keep imagining doing stupid shit with her and watching movies with her and going to museums and listening to music and dancing and kissing and loving but she's not yours and maybe she'll never be and of course you're crying while typing this and you're still so young and you get jealous so fast and your heart hurts so much and you want to explode and she's always on your mind and she never leaves but maybe you don't want her to because these are the most intense feelings you've ever had for anyone and she's the most important thing to you right now but she doesn't know it and i hope by the time you read this you got the chance to love her closer even if it was just for a little bit