For the first time I feel like an adult.

Heya me. How're you doing? Still around? I wonder what hardships and bullshit we had to overcome to get that outcome. Either way, if you're reading this, well done. You made it this far. Dont give up now, you hear? Things are picking up again, I think. Albiet in a crazy round about way. Me and Seren are still hooking up, and looking at a picture she sent it finally clicked that, holy shit, we're adults. And thats...kinda hot. I actually havent been sleeping with anyone whilst actually feeling mature and not like a dumb kid, so right now feels...interesting. We actually get on really well. I really do like her. Its bizzare how the people you know of can become people who are important to you in no time at all. I hope we remain good friends for a long time yet. Not to mention the others. Tom came to visit me three days in a row, and brought up stuff from my flat. I'm so used to people being busy, it took me aback. I know my other friends can't help it, but just once its nice to feel like, someone went out of their way for me completely. I love my friends and they do a lot for me, dont get me wrong. But they dont often do things that are actually quite a bit of effort just for my sake. Its...nice. Things are actually kinda looking up. And whilst that terrifies me, I think... I think I'm gonna let myself enjoy it this time, for however long it lasts. Time will keep moving forward. I will always have more suffering to come. Everyone will. So in these moments of non suffering, I will memorize every single little detail and lock them deep in my heart. God knows I'll need them. Be you later man. I hope. Oliver, aged 20. Oct. 3rd. It gets better.