A letter from October 4th, 2016

Dear FutureMe, Right now, you are more broken than I've ever seen you. You are struggling to go on. You feel unimportant, you feel rejected. The only person you ever loved, chose somebody else and you don't know how to react. I don't know how you will feel when you read this but I'm willing to bet that you will be okay. If the wrong person could treat you that well, imagine how great the right person will be. I know you are confused right now. And I know you just want to hide right now. But you just have to move forward. You have so many great things ahead of you and I don't want you to miss them because you keep continuously re opening this wound. I know it doesn't seem like it right now but this is whats best and whats right. You will recover. You will go on. And when you do you will realize what a great experience this has been. I know you wish this never happened and that you never met him, but he changed you for the better. He helped make you the person you are today and you can't forget that he was your best friend. He cared for you when nobody else did. He loved you at your worst. He was there for you when nobody else was. I know its hard to comprehend that he is really gone. But be happy for him. He deserves a lot. And know that someone can give you all that you are looking for. You won't feel like something is missing or like something isn't the way it should be. You will know. And when you do it will be splendid. He has her now so don't feel like you owe him anything. I know its weird to let someone else love him but you can't be there for him anymore like you used to be. Remember he wanted her so she needs to be the one to be there for him. I know you want to be there, but you can't keep letting people walk all over you. He's just going to push you aside and I can't sit here and watch that happen again. You are so used to being let down and I don't want to keep seeing you get hurt. I know that you are strong and capable and I need you to be that for me right now. You are going to be okay. I know this doesn't feel good right now but God is so good. He won't steer you in the wrong direction. He is in complete control and He will do what he sees fit. You are brave, you are strong, you are loved♥