A letter from November 29th, 2016

Hi bud! Yeah, it's that time of the year again. Fuck, I'm finding myself less inspired to write something creative than in the past letters. Probably has to do with the fact that I'm not procrastinating for homework right now, that usually seems to inspire creative thinking in my mind. Oh well, let's just go with an extra dose of dexamphetamine and a cut of my spare time then. So. As usual, how are you doing? As you may remember, last year I was very curious wether I'd have graduated from my study this year, or wether I'd fail my internship and have to spend another year on it. I was also hoping I'd have made new friends on a new school in case of my succesful graduation. Anyway, here's the good part: I passed and got my diploma. So that's good. Here's the perhaps somewhat dissapointing part: I still live my life mostly in isolation. I'm doing another MBO study in another direction this time around, and while I don't neccesarily regret my choice (HBO would be too big a step right now), I found that it's even harder to relate to fresh-out-of-high-schoolers now than it was for me back in high school. I've also started living on my own in this student house, which is very nice, but my roommates (who are all doing HBO or University) have made their own friends in school and don't really have the need to spend time with us. That's fine, we'll have our own conversations. Like I'm going to let barriers like time and physics hold me back on spouting out walls of sarcasm and bitter like a one-man Dexter-themed online forum. So what have I been doing lately, you ask? Well, besides school (which is going *fine*, although wether I'll be ready for HBO next year is still a big guess) I've been playing a lot of Hitman lately, which seems to be the first game in a while to get me out of my gaming slump. I've also tried Metal Gear Rising: Revengance, which I enjoyed a lot and will hopefully play a bit more extensively soon. I've been watching Black Mirror which I'm loving, and the last movie I saw was probably Dr. Strange a few weeks ago (dissappointing experience, although not the movies fault for the most part). I've been listening to Ludovico Einaudi and some new stuff from AVA, but other than that am mostly looking for new music that gets me excited like AVA does. Found something like that yet? I'd almost forget to ask you what's going on in your life (I mean, I asked you how you were doing earlier, but that was more of a rethorical question functioning as an intro to the coversation, than a real question). Last year I was hoping I'd have made friends; That boat has sailed for this year I'm afraid. So I don't wanna put too much pressure on it, but... Well... Do you still need to have entire conversations with yourself on a consistent basis in order to suffice to our social needs? Do you still lay in bed sometimes hugging your pillow while trying to trick your mind into believing you're holding a living, breathing something rather than a sack of shredded newspapers? I mean, you know that I won't judge you either way, but I know we could *really* use it at this point. Compared to last year the stakes right now are far lower in my life, but I'm also much less hopeful for receiving a payout that I can live from. Anyway, I'm rooting for you! Keep on fighting the good fight! (btw, I'd almost forget about mentioning the rats I adopted this weekend. How are they doing? Did you tie them to a tree somehwere in the woods yet? I hope not. You prick.) Talk to you next year (?), Yours Truly, Princess Toadstool