A letter from February 18th, 2017

Dear FutureMe, Hi me. Right now I'm are feeling a bit helpless, a bit (or very) sad, insecure and lonely as well. The combination of being a bit lost of where my future is heading, leaving the love of your life to go back home in a weeks time, and having the worst eczema outbreak over the last several years. By the time I read this, I will be 11 months into the future. I hope I spent it well; I better have not sat on your ass watching netflix and youtube and, I BEST have graduated college. Hopefully I've have got an excel certification, or at least have gone back to toastmasters or started on a new project. Continue to live outside my comfort zone, but remember that my comfort zone is still ok to stay in now and again. Hopefully I have acquired a better relationships with your mother, hopefully my aunt has come to US making grandma happy, and hopefully dad has found some type of longing happiness in his life. More importantly so, hopefully I have took a step forward to MY overall happiness. Remember this: i must take care of myself, in order to take care of others. Put yourself FIRST. Love myself, appreciate myself and know that my potential is limitless. People will tear me down and knock you down; I will fail again and again and, there will be days when I feel insecure. Bad days in will return endless good days. Don't give up krissy. Hopefully me and gill has progressed in our relationship. LDR are very difficult, especially intercontinental ones. However, loving him has been very easy. We have the special type of connection that people look for their whole lives and some, never find. He is so amazing and so good to you. I know I've told myself that "soul mates" don't exist but with each passing day, my mind is just changing. He brings the best out of me. We have be living life together and, i know that i want to continue living life with him until death do us part. We make such a great team. There will be bumpy roads, but don't give up. Our relationship is like chasing dreams while still stopping now and again to smell the roses. Hardwork, patience and love will reap wonderful things. We will be a success story. Even if you haven't accomplished all that you have hoped for up until today, don't feel bad. Just keep swimming. Love yourself, Krissy