A letter from March 12th, 2017

Dear FutureMe, i have never been so SHOOK holy shit shook to my very fucking core last night was the panic concert. i jumped THE ENTIRE TIME. i was always about to cry in between songs, but then i started jumping and singing and screaming again. it was magical. after brendon did the whole underground and POP UP RIGHT NEXT TO ME thing with this is gospel, i was sobbing and shaking harder than i ever have. he was so little and you could see how old he really was, but i felt so much love for him. i seriously almost fainted when he did this smile. it was so big and sincere. when he came down to hug everyone (including sadie!!!!), i snuck next to molly and lexy. then, i hugged lexy for like 80 billion years. we were both bawling. she texted me to say that she almost kissed me lol i was like wHY DIDN'T YOU ¿? aNYWAY, i still didn't stop jumping despite being crammed between the two of them. i didn't stop screaming any time dallon, kenny, or brendon did anything, either. girls/girls/boys even got molly crying- even though she's not a huge panic fan. i had been waiting so long for that concert. it meant everything to me. i'm in a state of total euphoria. i can't stop tearing up every time i think about it. nothing has ever meant this much to me. i feel like i keep repeating myself when i talk about it. i just love brendon so much. i really do love love love him and i love him and i love him. -MHM