Where I will be.. Ten years ago...

Dear FutureMe, What a wonder the future will be for me... for anyone.. The future is like a big box wrapped up for you to open when you don't even know when to... It's complicated I guess.. Where am I now? Working at my second coop. living in Hamilton, sick of the weather. One more year left of my mba. still wondering if that was the right thing to do. missing my family still in SA. Wanting to go back to my homeland, Lebanon. Trying to find love and learning to understand it. Protecting my heart and trying to let the tears come when they must. I am trying to better myself in every way. Focus on my embroidery hobby and keeping the friends that I have as well as making new ones whenever I can. My best friends are getting married this December and I feel like I am a late bloomer when it comes to finding that love. I'm trying to be more patient with the people I love, including my sister. I am trying to find out what I want in life. So far, I want to do my PhD in HR after I do a few years of workforce of HR. After that, I want to be a professor of HR at a university and also consult on the side. Later on in my life, I want to be a public speaker. That's why I am doing Toastmasters right now. I want to stick to it until I get the DTM designation. I want to have a family that I love so much. I want to have kids that I can take care of love and teach to live in this world. I want to have faith in the Lord and I want to pray to Him unceasingly every day. I want to have a beautiful home and I want to live in a warm place. I don't want to be in Canada. I want to be happy... I want to have someone in my life that I love alot and that loves me back. Yesterday I watched the movie 'The blind side' with sandra bullock and I LOVED how Bullock's character and husband treated each other. There was this mutual respect and love for each other. I really really want that with whoever I marry. I want to live for my family ten years from now. I want to be next to my mommy and daddy and I want my sister an dbrother to be happy tooooo.. It's going to be exciting to see where everything ends up. I pray that we will be ok... God will be with us. May the future be bright. And if this isn't my reality in ten years, it's ok, I'll have another ten years to make it my reality. Just make sure that in the next few years, I switch over to living in a warm place with family especially my mommy. I can't live like this anymore.. it's the 6th year away from family and it hurts... I am scared for the future but I should be excited like I used to be. I hope Teta's ok and I hope daddy and mommy are good. I hope that this email finds me well and that I am ok and strong and happy and confident and beautiful. I have to remember that in my youth, at 23 years, I should enjoy my beauty and my thirst for my life to start. I want to enjoy my freedom and I want to travel the world and connect with so many different types of people. I want to be happy With God, I will always be happy... What do you have planned for me God? I trust you... At 33, how will my world be?? Just a blink, here goes!