He left yesterday,

Jenna, Right now I can only think about how cold his hands were. My mind is a clusterfuck of all the worst things that could be happening, I cant imagine him as anything other than scared. Im so worried. I cant stop crying. I am terrified of doing anything that might prolong my life. Please tell me there's been some news and I'm still here to hear it. I've never been less afraid of my usual condition. I cant think about anything other than him hurt and afraid. I'm so worried. I keep pretending to be asleep like a kid up past bedtime. It feels like its been so long already and I can't do anything to help. I knew something terrible was going to happen, but not this quickly, I needed more time, please don't let it be over so soon. Please come back. Please be okay. I will never give up on you if you just let me try. I will always be there but you need to let me try please don't let it be the end I love you so much it hurts. How long are they going to keep you there? When can I talk to you again? I need help. Someone please tell me what to do.