A letter from October 31st, 2017

So you had your last college exam yesterday. It fells great, doesn't it? But also it's kinda odd. I mean, for the past 6 years it was your world. Now it's over. It's time to go out there and get a real job in the real world. Man, it's time to fight for being an analyst at Itaú. Or it's time to be brave and move to another country. Which one? I don't know yet. I really have the urge to move since I came back home.. But I don't have a direction. I'm totally free. This is all I wanted, but it's also what terrifies me. Does it sounds fair? Study in a public university, the best one and being paid to go on an exchange program, use all this public money and just disappear in the world when I'm done? It doesn't. And do you know what also isn't fair? Have all this qualification and be stuck in here, earning much less than I may earn abroad, with a lower life quality, poor security and... above all, missing all the time I spent on that exchange program. United States always will be my second home. West Virginia will always have an special space on my heart. But it's time to choose another country to call home. Europe maybe? I don't know. It's not that simple anymore. This time I'm by my own. I'm just sure about one thing: if I stay in Brazil I will always wonder what would be like live and work entirely in another country, with no one having my back. I just can't let this opportunity get away while I'm young... but if I can't work out with this? What will be when I come back? No job anymore, a gap on my career, no direction... So, please future me, it's time to make a decision. Choose wisely.