A letter from November 27th, 2017. Letter #1.

Dearest FutureMe. I'm writing this the day after we lost Evangeline. My sweet baby dinosaur, gone but definitely not forgotten. I believe Evangeline came as a reminder to myself that things have slipped on by for far too long. I only had her in me for a month but I fell hard. I was so scared but excited to grow bigger, become Mummy to this sweet baby but it wasn't meant to be just yet. What she taught me in that short space of time is that I've neglected some things and I've lost some things that I need to regain. So, Future Me. I'm writing to you in the rawest moment in the hopes you'll read these messages and turn things around. Again. Keep an eye out on the next messages, think of Evangeline but don't cry because she wasn't meant to be here -just yet. In future, she'll come back, maybe with a different name, but she'll come back to me. To us. I love you with all my heart. Emma x