Future me

Dear Future Me, and anyone else who reads this (please read will make me happy) Hey your twenty and I want to send you a few things, memories, wants, dreams, fears,and troubles of your past. You might want to get something to drink because this is a long sincere letter from yourself twenty years ago. You'll find this message is not like the others you sent yourself, this one will be worth reading and will be priceless information when your older, or now I should say. Your thirteen, it was 12:03 in the morning when you started writing this. Wants. Right now as you enter your teen years and start your changes you want to walk up to the next Tom, Dick, or Harry that you see and slap them, but you know you won't. You also want a laptop something a little materialistic for our taste i know but that's the only thing you want so badly, or at least that's what you think. You also want there to be more peace in your life, your parents have broken up to (hopefully) never get back together. There is a biotch who lives down your road and you and your brother always fight. But most of all you want someone who gets you, who understands you. Fears. You fear much right now. You fear, change, death, trouble, heart break, love and emotion. You are changing into a young lady and are growing in areas you wish you weren't. You are worried that your friend is dying and she might not know. You worry your other friend is going to get herself into serious trouble and you won't be around to bail her out. Your really worry about love and heart break, because you have started to feel things you've never felt before , and emotion has taken control, before you started writing this you were balling your eyes out for no reason. I hope you have face these fears. Troubles. You have been in trouble a few times. You have nearly hit someone who you will read about in the next chapter. You have mouthed off to your father, see next chapter. And have been in a police car because you and your friend had fake money that you thought was real. Erks. The people who have erked you have caused much emotional distress. Let's start with Taylor Martin, Taylor have continualsy went around calling your mom a whore, and a prostitute. we'll leave her at that. But Brenda on the other hand she gets the fumes going. The other day, when you were waiting for the bus with your brother Keelan and Nathan came up to talk with you. Keelan and Nathan were your friends and their bus stop was just across the road from yours, so your talking and Brenda's girls come and line up to wait for the bus. So you keep talking, then for no reason Emily, Brenda's little girl says "you better leave, Keelan my mom doesn't like you." she said it really rude so we ignore her and keep talking. Brenda comes around the corner ans sure enough Emily plops down her backpack and runs over to Brenda and wispers something in her ear. But we still ignore her. The boy's bus pulls up so they go run to their stop and get on. Then Brenda opens her flap "Don't talk to my kids" so you retaliate "I didn't even say one word to any of your kids." Then she opens her flap agian "I don't care i said don't talk to my kids." So you say "O.k. just shut up." Then, oh Brenda says "you know what you are?" So you say "No and i don't care." Then Brenda "Your a mouthey little fucking bitch." your not one who likes to be called that so you say "O.k. I said shut up you stupid mother f-er." You don't swear to Brenda because you know it will start a whole new fight but Brenda says "Well how 'bout i come over there and slap you across the face." That's when you lost it "EXCUSE ME!" then she smirks like she's won a medal or something and says "You heard me." So you get in her face and say "GO AHEAD, YOU'D BETTER MAKE SURE IT KNOCKS ME OUT BECAUSE IF YOU DON'T. I'M DROPPING YA!" then everybody shuts up. And your dad let's not get started. Dreams. Thanks for reading this far, i left it public so if you've read this far I give great thanks. I dream to make a strong difference in the world, not so I'm remembered but so the world can be a better place. You dream of a world where when children wake up they don't have to worry about bullies or no money for lunches. You dream of a world where no one has to be hurt. But by this age you've learned that dreams are for dreamers and you aren't one. Hopes. I don't hope much because I know the future is unpredictable that's why we send letters to it. Because we want our selves to look back on the times when we were younger, and really think and wonder if we've done everything we wanted to. Or we wonder if we tried to set our standards to high, and became something we aren't. The important thing is that we get back up dust ourselves off and try again. But it's not always that way some time we need help up. Some times we depend to much on help up and then it's not there. The best thing you can do for yourself is find someone who loves you, for you and get a job that pays the rest. Just something i thought you might want to contemplate, Thanks for taking time to read this, it is now 12:48 am. sincerely, Emaly A.k.a yourself, or to the public a stranger.