A letter from March 10th, 2018

Dear Future BadAss Self, Hey there silly me! By this time, I think you have already forgotten that you wrote a future crappy letter like this. Why do I even write letters like this? This is so weird. Absolutely. I hope you're fine now. Because today? I'm not fine. I want you to know that no one trusts me, even I, can't really trust myself fully well. I hope now, you are absolutely and definitely okay because if not, I'm gonna be so sad. You know I took an entrance exam to a very popular school who offers really high quality education and I'm expecting to get in. 5 days or more to go and I'll know if I pass that exam. I'm so frustrated that I'm not that confident and that I think I won't pass it. I hope by the time you're reading this, you are in the school I applied for and the school I really hoped to get in! It must be hard there right now but always remember that I struggled a lot through all those hindrances and I want you to know that you will get through that. We face challenges all the time and we always knock them down like an ass. I hope you're happy now, I'm guessing you are!! Hello future me, it must've been weird to read this knowing that you wrote this and actually forgetting what it contains since this memory of writing and the content will be brushed off by a lot more memories that I'll store in my useless brain. Hope you're doing good. Hope you find yourself! I hope you find the others, the others who will make you happy for the rest of your life. Lovingly, You untrustworthy, diffident, useless, fragile self.