A letter from March 12th, 2018

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Today it's been 15 days since your dad passed away and it feels like it was yesterday. You still don't really believe that happened and it hurts so bad to get inside of that bedroom. I hope you're coping better now. Is mom ok? Have you and your S/O decided to live with her or have you moved out? Congratulations on your 8th aniversary with Him. I'm 100% sure you probably have been married for almost two years now. Do you guys plan on having kids anytime soon? Do you already have them? Right now, I'm struggling to get a job while mourning and helping mom. I'm not giving up because I know you depend on that to be with the love of your life and to make your dream come true, but it's so hard. Well this letter is just for you to remember how hard things once were and how much better you are now. Things might not be that good for you, I know future won't be all fun and games and roses and stuff but It can't get any worse than it is now, so yeah you're probably better than I am, lucky person! See you in 3 years.

Epilogue

2 days later

Dear past me. I'm so sorry for our loss. It's somewhat refreshing to get this card, since I didn't really remember much from that time (It all went blank after...

Wei)lh a. Vnee ni uryo oruy htwi oyu itenggt get fo two mom adn leaon uoyr a wemno sinec trehe nieessnusa emho own oseuh elpes ni ddi you o'euyr oevr etar'psn. .
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Noidg m'mos. . . Ok. A,sw hstat' srweo if hes so athn inasgk wtha sh'se rey'ou not. . . Ahye.
Dluont'c ithw ,reh it emka ebeausc to nto of s/o ddieedc tbu he n'ora liev nrtuocy my em to se'h dan erhe uyro ubeecas ltsil. Refta lfy uedsspop uhts lpymtcleeo eht tyhe a eskew srobrde aws he to ewf.
Ln'cuodt ew eb dan ht8 we yeytreads if dd,niee wree yvsrarniae arphpei ruo slhaiypcyl egohtrte we s,wa wle,l( doclu. ).
Ayealrd eroht hiws yb gpnilnan ehtn 'yroeu oyu hcae aniroilg ouyr didgenw patrap back veen fmro dna oru tweghi to 'rewe. Care rwarekpop nda teh gakint veuen fo wre'e ehotslc and.
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,now na awy, eu'ory yob teh a teuani akwl by who anc ldyarea fo hahyetl. He osudpeps 00%1 yhlahet raleeir emac he wsa ahnt but nda ohtnm a ni 'she o,t ueufabilt.
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Sthmon refta you 2 did the norgiwk uyo eorwt rtelet attsr. Nda hthlae mnealt your icsk oodg lkei in saw whit ecni elhl jbo a pya you ti ogt it tub mdae rwee a uyo eems. Up ni tarel oyu 5 psych a nhmsot ddene wdar. Eth adn a 3?0gk you no teyh yeuro' trsitc 61gk tem,h featr sedm and yo,rwr i you angi edti takgin a yrae olst d'ton nmnotei ouy tereh dema of own gtnconui did odgo vgea.
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Ktep pu 91 ihgnt lutlmeip teh amse a iwntih nda swa utsj het ayheptr taerf hist twih lntui egva efw )ryae reew adh pu eenb alst ndphepae oyu nda onhmt our(y indgo uyo ujyanar tht,a a ciesn uyo rty ouy on bjos or wseek ietrd. Si ouy rrfeom lenoin uoy etobrmaocfl gmkain he how wsd)ro only ont hiwt has flee aroemny lceu itslphocsosgy had slta clslyiaba dan asdi teesh bt(u one week ot oesth totispnmeapn ueebsac odnt' to ishscirpttay elph nda on yuor chtsiw ndgio.
No one eahv si oyu loyn edai had tey ogdo hwo nnmpoietatp she uoy os.
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Oyu dehaln like oyu you ldouc eaumricn wa,y a adh eusr yb nibeg nad att,h tirde weer pytrte hte utb yuo. . Gdrea eht wsa uyo umscotrse? nda a nlia ouesrc it oyu no htta and no senpt eymno nisec a os 4 eth rsamleait adceyam dha schu ogdo hsaem hmuc.
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Nda nssicosart shti raye swa staet a amtlen taht on oruy adn yuo vreses ancotisva mpdvoeri ouldc the lytaclau leuarpes macre ti rayse usch iwht og hltcecooa tfirs ni yuo taht iths 9 cie ufdno deeolpx rfo kmsae eapcl was bsisleng, nawan uoy yrea ntmohs!.
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,oemebnrv weors oomd ssgnwi rouy wesro lttneyunr,ufao and eisnc ebne haev iynginraslce. Oto ae,mrsc etg cuhm ayw yuo trcielg,ah laugh reyv ldoxe,pe cry,. . . A trtaem suhor in of lla. Eben os it tuasxihnge sha. . . .
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Ts21 nja aywa on teh lem ssedap. A turmo aekw eh a ubecsae dda to syera itohnng gao ddniee 3 ish kics tbu edevdleop dah fo idakn he ega rtahe aftre od elki asw sih nad nad aws sih sespda hated etbert eh rof whti ayer ddi too etg ayaw ocidt,nnio. Yeht loudc ghetreivyn did srdooct.
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Get alrom hte adb aer enpnhigap cnat' fo hstnig eyht oodg and ghuoen eernv pigapennh vnee ,syrot insght ear htta reswo dba thnsig nwhe trshee' aayslw.
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