A letter from January 28th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, It’s midnight on January 28 2020 and i just want you to know that i hope you’re doing well!! I hope we finally figured out what we want to do and what we want from life, but if we don’t- its ok! I know it will come to us, even if it’s hard waiting on it, but when the timing is right, it will be all good. Currently you’ve been deep in your bible for 3 months now, well nearly 3 months, and while you’ve been attacked a few times, life has been brighter! Even with reminding my faith in a dying world, it’s been vibrant and wonderful. Even with the world falling down around us. Threat of WW3, and the the Trump impeachment trials, and the the coronavirus. There’s a lot going on in the world! Australia is still on fire, there’s volcanos erupting and earthquakes and too much to write. I know all this stuff goes on around me, but sometimes you can’t listen to it anymore and you need to block it all away. Do you still think like this? I know you’re only a year older but I wonder how much I’ve changed! Realistically I think I’d like to have found someone that is all mine. not necessarily a significant other, but if I have a friend that I can call my best friend that would be great! Do I have one? Maybe I’ve moved out of the country? That’d be cool too! But that is something i doubt hahaha. Are we still scared of everything? Well, not scared but very /uncomfortable/ with everything. The one thing I really would like to think and reflect on is if I’m happy a year from now? Am I? Because I see myself generally as a happy person when really I’m just content with how everything is going currently, so I would like to be truly happy a year from now. Maybe I do have a family? Secretly I want kids, I want to be a mom, but I think I’ll have to get them in a very unconventional way, but who knows? Maybe there is love in my future, and even if I don’t, that’s ok! I’m only 21 right now and you’re only 22! It’s ok. I just want my future self to know and remember to be kind to yourself and that everything is ok and going to be ok. And I want her to know that you’re perfect just as you are and even if I fall a few times and find it hard to see myself as such, I know that I am one of a kind and that I am beautiful and powerful in my own way. Is my world filled with the love that I preach?