A letter from August 11th, 2019

Peaceful right?

hey lex, it’s weird that I’ve already written 4 other letters but I feel the need to write more. This summer has been a roller coaster of emotions, we experienced some good, some bad, and some ugly. I’m trying to keep a positive attitude but it’s just been so hard lately, i spent my summer chasing after mark, i tried to hard to make us happen but he didn’t want me. He says he still likes me but he always makes mistakes and he doesn’t wanna put me through that or something ?? I haven’t texted him in almost a week but I called him yesterday to see if he could help me and isabel get our car unstuck but he said he couldn’t help and then hung up before I could say thanks anyway. I’m really hurt and I wish I didn’t feel this way. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do anymore, do I just wallow in self pity until my heart heals itself somehow ? I’m so lost and confused and I can only hope that we have our **** together by the time you get this letter. Oh also happy birthday ! make sure you get that tattoo over spring break unless you’ve decided not to then that’s fine! I hope that when I read this letter again I’ll be happier and that reading marks name won’t hurt. I’m praying for our happiness and I hope it finds us :) until we meet again, xoxo lex

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Hi lex :)

I remember that summer oh so clearly and i want to apologize for putting you through all of that hurt over a boy who doesn’t know what...

Esh’ gidno. Gdoo wsa ouy os ehal yds)a tunli elsf uoy e,arht iecnpoxet ti dba fo leadlwwo hte ot yruo thta t(hwi eidealrz nedo e’voyu ni gigon fra vrene teh yipt. Kabre ootk rbkae nttgegi tbu we’er sngipr ggoni dna vhae csoohl fo si ew geclloe lsa,ssec ot lecasss, fmro ttrhgeoe no not’d our we lfie laguerr os ! mhitg nad eavh acusbee ykao me im’ colegel braek up, rou go fo tlsil ill’ esinnnettxo eb ot ’esehtr odcvi oru htsi gpa yhet ubt rof slecsas we usaec ruo oru ulfl paid tbu tgnkai a tenw rof knaitg catlualy its’ wkee eerf away sceni ovel o?d. Mnea oseenmo ot adn indspiitan,opg geittng eb si :) osne to ti ’ms aseubec gtegtni not weednek us ’im the iggno ntis’ tub ihtw we enyrmoa vreeesd yet ym !!! tsla svexeiepn aredezil uongscfni ’im rthu porsen eenrv i ppayh htye erew ont re’we h’es eht dna utb woh d’noste tbu ganried rcedeip hsit toaott upt meas hwo. Nad ish ogdo os at it gf pphay essem reveesds sh’tat eh sebucea asbe,b yppah own eh lates so ’ehs ihtw. ): one na ,eshwsi oals eben papesnh,is pkee u it saw tub si’t fro reagt ti isrnteniget inrypga hdyabtri saw ruo okngrwi teh khant rfo. Eroyu’ ’ntsi ttgeing ghu ot os gthothu the ohw uyo htowr nda adn aleeps hrut :) oealizpog inadk ubtao uthrogh nkow rfraodw ot ayellr sa e,rmo i i htat ekep as ti adn put eb we hwis lla cyars ocdul adn 81 aipn si nfu pinughs i’ts.
Rfo uro e,sshipapn llits yrpngai mi’.
3< oox,x lxe.